Flashbacks

The reactions I see when it happens are priceless. I think I’m somewhat aware of the people and things around me but yet, I dono, it seems hazy. Although when I think back, I can hear more than see the people around me saying things. I’m not sure how much of it was directed at me. People touched me, which I don’t approve of. I think I was vaguely aware of that when it occurred although I was too far gone to do anything about it. I’m not sure why it happened or what stopped it. That’s what I’m still trying to figure out.

I can remember various people poking me. Something being put on my knee. I saw someone’s face in front of mine. I heard mostly mumbling. I heard questions. "is she sleeping?" It doesn’t fit together though. I kept fading in and out.

I don’t know how to stop this.

I need to learn how to talk.