missed me, missed me….

we broke up, its done
 

some time ago too…near valentines day…valentines day was horrible like always, and even though i wanted to make it special, it sucked and sucked even more than ever

 

i miss him, he moved on, and it rlly hurts

im broken hearted and i hate this feeling of jealousy, pain, sadness, and anger that ive been feeling for quite a few weeks now….i hate it so much

 

his birthday is next week, and i doubt ill be going

 

we’re still friends, but i hate that everytime i see him, it just reminds me of how much i miss him

 

fuck this, fuck that, this sucks, this sucks badly, i hate it, i fuckin hate it so much

 

so many fuckin negative feelings
 

he tells me that he does miss me, and even though it rlly looks like he does when he says it, his actions show differently, and i hate it, i dont even know who to believe anymore

him or his sister…who knows him more than most people….she says i can find better and that even though hes her little brother, she knows he’s an asshole and been treating me badly….i never rlly noticed until she told me and thought about it…..

 

i hate my reality…….im not suicidal, and im not being emo

this is the truth, all i feel is so much fucking anger and frustration

to think i lost my virginity to him, to think i was so blinded

i dunno what to think about him anymore, i just want to get over him and i cant, and i hate it

 

FUCKKKKK!!!!FUCKIN HELLL FUCK!

 

now i know how it rlly feels to be brokenhearted and i have to admit, it sucks, it sucks even more that i fuckin thought, a lot worse than i fuckin thought…….

 

i cant think of anything else to write to describe how i feel….i just hate it, i hate it deeply with a passion……