Losing him, Losing myself

last week i saved some entries of my best friend smiley’s and I conversations on facebook. Why? because some of these conversations we’ve had were either deeply meaningful, outrrageously funny, or was a conversation that led us to some adventures or events that took place when we were out and about. No, im not crazy, well, im lying, yes i am crazy, but this isnt. The reason i did this, and the reason i labeled it "This is why your my best friend" was because lately……ive been feeling like im losing him…

the worst part, im losing him to christianity….

he doesnt go out anymore….he rarely hangs out with me or friends….no drinking, no smoking, no nothing….

thats fine, no drinking or smoking, ok, but, he says he doesnt want to go out because he doesnt want to be tempted….and…..well fk, dude….we dont have to drink or smoke, but he still doesnt come out….what rlly hurt was when he said he wasnt going to move with us anymore, when the whole thing and all the organization was started and planned by HIM….i feel like im losing him….and i feel like im losing part of myself….i mean, smiley has done so much more for me than anyone ever has, more than hes realized too….and in losing him, i feel like im losing part of me….or maybe i feel bad about this whole situation and secluding myself….

i feel like an asshole, blaming this on christianity….but i dont think its that, i think its that hes taking this whole thing to the extreme….

im wiccan, and hes christian, and hes starting to change his views…..and some of the things he says or does are actually starting to sound rlly insulting, and he doesnt seem to care because hes on "God’s energy"(or thats what i call it when someones ecstatic praising God)

im losing my best friend, my go to guy, the only person i used to always hang out with everyday, enjoying everysingle minute with…..im losing my comofrt….my advice guy…..my shoulder to cry on…..im losing my best friend, and everyday it just…worsens….i dont talk to him the way i used to anymore….neither does he….we’re starting to just….drift apart….

and it pains me, im more moody, im drinking more than i used to, i just…

i dunno what to do…..

 

i cant do anything, every little thing thats said "against God" or "against christians" he gets so offended, even if it was a small joke

i told him the church he goes to spreads flyers around about how "witches and wicca is evil" and "everyone who celebrated halloween as a holiday is evil and worships the devil" its true, ive seen the flyers myself, they pass it out every halloween

he got offended and decided not to touch on the subject

its offensive to me, and he doesnt care

i hold my tongue when its about something christian, and yes i do defend them at some points,

but when its a religion bashing another religion, i cant, its offensive, and its wrong.

he doesnt care

i dont know what to do….

 

i dont think we’re gonna last a lot longer…

i mean its not just me….from what i can tell, he seems to feel the same way…