need to work on food

I’m disappointed in myself. I knew my eating habits got bad, but its only in the past week or so I’ve realized how bad exactly. It seems most of it is just junk junk junk. LOADS of takeaways.

I can make excuses. Theres loads of them. The new flat doesnt have a cooker. It doesnt have a fridge. Hubby’s kitchen is dirty. His oven doesnt work. None of the pans are cleaned. But lazy us would rather spend time and money going to go get food rather than time in the kitchen cleaning it. We havent organized anything. We dont have any food bought. Everything needs to be restocked.

When I cook I’m good. I know what I’m eating and make sure that I get LOADS of the good stuff in. I add frozen veggies to stuff, make sure I have fruits around to snack on.

I’m TRYING not to be too hard on myself. TRYING!! I know that I need to get things sorted but I dont want to overwhelm myself or I’ll just give up. I’m trying to slowly add the good stuff so the bad stuff automatically gets pushed out. If I fill up on fruit then I wont hunt donw some chocolate. Or if I do hunt it down i wont eat so much.

I’ve been trying to make sure that I dont get too much fried stuff. Its not hard, I’ve really gone off chips (english chips). I’ve been only going to places that have frys (yes they do taste different) but theres a lack of those places around. Yesterday I had chicken in naan. I’ve been looking at the menu and picking out the ‘best’ health wise stuff. I TRY TRY TRY to make sure theres some salad with it. And if the shop doesnt give it I’ll add it myself. Last night I added tomatoes and the shop gave lettuce and cucumber. I’m trying to get my ‘five a day’ in. Most days I’ve been getting close. RECENTLY that is. Go back a few weeks and I was lucky to get one or two in. Now I’ve been getting in 3 or 4. Today it was watermelon, grapes, bananna, salad and grapes again. I keep trying to pick up fruit when I go past the shop.

I need to get the kitchen cleaned up and restock everything. I miss cooking. I miss eating nice good food. Hubby misses it too. DD loves her fruits and veggies. I should really be encouraging her to eat them more and providing them for her.

I just hope things quiet down a bit so I have a chance to.