2nd Blizzard of the Year

Something came over me last night.  I was angry.  It’s hard to tell if it was because of one particular reason or perhaps it was several reasons all jammed into my head at once.  I was grumpy. 
 
It probably all started due to this most anticipated snow storm.  For the second time this winter 10-16 inches is headed our way.  I love the snow, but I do not underestimate the power Mother Nature has and I don’t test it.  I hide from it.  Knowing I don’t have a vehicle made for the snow, by any means, (I drive a Chevy Metro) I don’t wish to put myself or others at risk.  Luckily, I car pool to work but I’m still scared of 10-16 inches of snow no matter the vehicle or driver.  Basically, what I’m saying is I was mad last night that I had to go to work today.  There, I admitted it.  It’s certainly childish of me, and I realize that.  Only kids get to stay home when it snows, but I was jealous and envious of everyone, young and old, who got to start their weekend early… and be home safely.  And maybe my real anger was coming from the fact I am unhappy with my work and nervous about my future. 
 
When I laid down to bed all I could think about was being stuck on the side of the road with the snow pouring down and me not being able to get home to Mark.  I thought about the turns on the innerstate and driving too fast to handel them.  It scares me.  I was then angry at everyone calling this "such a great place to work," when it’s clear my orginzation doesn’t care about me as an individual.  Why does a measly little secretary need to stay during a storm?  Especially when there’s other secretaries that live close and are willing to stay.  Beats me
 
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Well what’s a little over reacing going to hurt??  I was upset and scared and I couldn’t help it.  But sure enough, God willing, I made it home from work and just had freezing rain to deal with on the way home.  The big snow though came later in the night and now we have about a foot.  Nothing compared to the snow back home though.  My family in DC has well over 2 feet with snow expected to fall clear into the evening hours.  This is nuts.  I kinda wish we had that kind of snow here, but this is plenty for us.  I’m just going to hide out at home for the rest of the weekend.  Yah for snow!