21.05.2023

I feel like I have so much to say today, but I can’t find the words.

I spent the morning in the hospital.  It was my own fault.  They wanted me to stay, but I left.

I’m not sure that I learned a lesson from it though.  Im not sure that the actions weren’t worth the consequences.  It’s a scary thought, but at the same time very true.

I surrounded myself with sweet distraction all day, it’s perfection made me forget the heaviness.

But it’s time to return to reality.  It’s time to slip back behind the mask.  To smile and laugh at all the right times.  Make the right jokes and say the right things.

I really wonder if this is my new normal?