you’re still the biggest part of me
I can’t take it anymore. I cant take not being with Timmy. I thought I was okay with us not talking..I thought I was okay with the fact that things were over..I thought I accepted all of this, but here, all I did was push it back into my head so that I wouldnt think of it. I replaced him with thoughts of other happy things, but none of those things are permanent and none of those things are true happiness like he is to me. I didnt even realize all of this until I talked to my mom tonight and she told me that she talked to him. I dont even know why it hurt me so bad, but it did. I know that things are not the time for me and him, but theres still that hope and dream in my heart and mind that someday, when the time is right, we’ll get back together because the love that was between us is just so strong. I cant get over him. I try so hard and I just cant do, and thats how I know that I still love him. I always thought that I was just addicted to him, that I just needed him because I had him for so long, but its not like that at all. I loved him and wanted to be with him and stuck everything out with him and tryed so hard to work things out with us because I love him so much. Hes my one and only. I dont want anyone else to have him/make him happy/make him sad/touch him/talk to him or anything because thats my job. I’m his princess and its my job to take care of him when hes sick, or sad, or hold him just because, or tickle him or just lay with him and annoy him to tickle my back, thats all my job because I love him and hes mine. I’m selfish. !@%$!%.
I hate school with all my heart. I hate being there everyday, it just brings me down so much. We have less than 86 days left, but its just so hard to go on. Its the most important year for me, and all I’m doing is fucking up. I mean, my grades are good..all A’s and B’s..but thats not the point. The point is that I waste all semester fucking around until the very end where I’m forced to put mega amounts of stress on myself to pull my grades. fuck. fuck. fuck. i hate this. i hate everything.
fuck man, my heart is broken. </3
just fucking kill me and let me rot in my own pile of cigarette ashes.
wooo. way to be emo ;x
i’m sorry to hear about you and timmy, thats gotta be hard! I hope things work out for you two in the future though if that’s what is best! try to just surround yourself with your friends and have a good time<33333
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School and males are a complete waste of time. They give us too much grief for what they’re worth and half of the time, it ends up not mattering anyway.
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