you’re only worth it in my dreams.

im so sick and it sucks so bad ); not like throwing up sick or anything, but cold sick and i hate it. i’ve been sneezing like crazy and i can only breathe out of one side of my nose and it keeps switching sides, its so fucking annoying and i just wish that i was all better ;/ i was hardly sick all winter..only having a fever one time! and now blah. whatever. hopefully i’ll be over it soon.

i’ve been hanging out with shane, my ex-step-brother, alot lately and he has a webcam..so its awesome cuz i can take pictures whenever i want, haha. i took some and they’re in my last entry..woot. I look like a dork and the pictures are really sucky, but whatever works is fine with me (; I hung out with almost everyday for the past week, haha, its great because we get a long so well, but i know that if we still lived with each other we wouldnt, so i dont know. I miss living with him and shit but things are better this way.

last saturday, we (me, rachel & kellsey) went all the way to New Jersey so that Jess could get her abortion ;/ It only took us like 2 1/2 hours to get there, and thats all that it was supposed to take us, so it was fine, but then we had to wait around forever until she was done. We got there at like 9:00 and we didnt leave until 1:00 and that isnt that long, but when you have nothing to do, 4 hours is fucking forever. But anyways, it was so sad because of all the people that were there. You could see by the look on all the girls faces that they were scared to death..and some of them were crying and shit so bad. it made me feel like such shit and im so glad that i dont have a boyfirend to have sex with, haha. But anyways, so after all that, we headed on the way home and Rachel refused to go by the directions that i had, so she called breanne and got directions from her, which did nothing but get us lost in downtown newark, where we drove around for TWO HOURS. It was so retarded and I almost punched her in the face for not listening to me, but whatever. we’re home now and thats all that matters. I just hope that none of my other friends get pregnant ;/

we got tickets to go see greenday ;D we’re going april 27th, which is shanes birthday..haha..We were going to get them for Altantic City but the tickets were all sold out so now we have them for New York, haha and I love New York with all my heart, so im pretty pumped<33 alright well im headed to blowdry my hair, smoke a cigarette & then head to shanes, where hopefully kristen will run me to timmys for a little bit hehehe..later kids<3