since you’ve been gone…

since you’ve been gone </3

things with me and timmy have been going really good, i guess. we’ve been hanging out everyweek, for like 2-3 days, which is pretty much the only time that we can hang out because he works so much. I don’t know whats going on with him and me, but yeah. I’m happy with the way things are going right now, whether we’re going out or not. so i’m just gonna do my best to make sure that things stay good & dont go bad.

I’ve been starting to spend the weekends up there again, except this weekend because my mom wants to go shopping and shit a lot for her vegas trip, but anyways, so right now im just hanging around my hosue with jess & its early as shit and i cant get to sleep. its like 10:00 but i’ve been up since 6:45, i just couldnt sleep. argh.

timmys cousin, melissa & her husband joe, are moving to hawaii. when i first found out about it, i started crying so bad. i love her to death and i dont want her or joe to go because im going to miss them so much. for a long time, missy and joe were the only people in timmys family that liked me, because of me being so much younger than timmy ); im sad about that, but at least we’ll get to go and visit! haha.

evan seriously is the biggest fucking cocksucker i’ve ever met in my life. i hate him with all my heart. i hate thinking about him too, its not that i want to be with him, because i dont. its the fact that when i do think about him, i get all mad and upset and i get that sick-to-my-stomach feeling and its not a good feeling. its not like being in love.

but anways, so last night, he calls me around 10:30 ish and i didnt answer my cell phone because i was on the phone with timmy. so because i didnt answer, he called my house, at 10:30 at night, which wouldnt be a problem if it was saturday, but he knows that my mom gets up at 3 in the morning to go to work, so i was what the fuck?! so anyways, he told me to put his hoodie and his shirt outside because he was coming to get it. i told him no, because he pissed me off by waking the whole house up and i wasnt gonna go and look for all this shit at 10:30 at night because i was sleeping..haha..even though i wasnt. so then he goes on and on about how hes coming up and he’ll start banging on the door and shit, and i told him fine, go ahead, i’ll call the fucking cops. and he goes "WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU?!" and i just told him that he didnt do anything, besides be a fucking dick & wake up the whole house. so then he was saying about he considers his shit stolen and i said well, consider it what you want, its not stolen. you know where it is. you know you can have it back, WHEN I GET MY SHIT BACK. and he was like what shit? and i said about the 2 necklaces that kyle has of mine(kyle was his best friend) & the pajama pants that kyle has of mine and my shoes that his sister has, and he said "oh i dont even talk to talk anymore" and i pretty much told him that that sounds like a personal problem now, doesnt it? so then he said he was gonna call tomorrow to come and get his shit, but fuck that. he is NOT getting his shit until i get mine, so fuck him.

so now im really afraid. he knows that we hardly ever lock the doors and shit and he knows that the backdoor doesnt even lock, so im scared. im afraid that hes just going to come and take some of my shit or ruin my shit or what. i mean, hes already on probation, and i know that if anything gets ruined or goes missing, then it was him, but still. im afraid that hes gonna do shit to my moms car and whatever else. argh. i hate this. fuck him so much.

anyways, the 4th marking period is up and im so happy (; i did really good this marking period too. I got a 96% in English, a 94% in Accounting, I passed Gym, I got an A in Chorus, and i got an 89% in History. I was really pissed that I got an 89%..what the fuck is that?! 1 percentage point away from having all straight A’s ;/ god dammit.

i went shopping last night & thursday night (; first, i went out with rachel, janelle & jess. we went to dots and i get a betty boop purse. and then we went to target and i got blank cds so that i can burn the cds that timmy let me borrow. so rachel dropped us all off at my house and janelles mom came to pick us up & we went to target..i got 2 pairs of hello kitty plaid underwear, tinkerbell socks, a photo album, and a ren and stimpy dvd collection thing. so then i came home and shit and friday, i went shopping again with my mom, janelle and jess, haha. we went to dotz again and i got like 4 pairs of socks, another betty boop purse, and uhm..i think thats it, haha, i cant remember. so then we went to ross and met up with ashley, julie, ben & reisch and hung out there for a little bit. my mom tried on some clothing and she looked really hott, but she didnt like any of them. i tried on 2 skirts, which i looked fucking horrible in, so i didnt get them, and i got a tinkerbell shirt (; so cute, i <3 her. and i got like 4 photoalbums! haha.

so then we got home and we ordered pizza and just hung out. i cleaned and organzined some of my room, like, i got all ym dirty clothing on piles & shit, and im still in the middle of cleaing off my bed, but i moved most of the books on my bookshelf over to the computer room to make room for other shit, and now i have all my photoalbums out and shit and it looks really cute. i love it.

so today, jess and i are hanging out for awhile, as always. and then janelle is coming over after her aunts funeral ); RIP Nancy. and then later on, when my mom gets home, she wanted to go shopping, but i dont know if we’re going to or not. Kristen, Shane, Amanda and Margie are coming over though and we’re having a game day! haha, we’re gonna play games and shit all day and im really excited to do that because i havent played games in forever! but she works at 11 until like 1 or something, but yeah. bye kids <33