everybody look at me cuz i’m SaiLiNG oN a BoAt*

seriously, it was literally been forever since i wrote in here. i wrote stuff before, but then my exboyfriend at the time(raymie) got sorta weird and was like stalking me online when i would do things, so i deleted those entires because i didn’t want anyone to read what i wrote ;x but now that he’s out of my life, i can continue! lol.

fist things first…i am dating someone new. his name is abel and we were best friends before we started dating. we started seeing each other in november but our "official" date of being together is january 23rd, so this past january was one year (: overall, things have been good. we’ve come a long way from where we’ve been & i love him a ton, it’s just hard sometimes because i feel like he has no ambition to better himself. i feel like sometimes he just thinks he can wait around and oppurtunity will come to him….but he’s 24. times don’t work like that when you get that old. plus, we were talking about moving out into our own place and stuff because the apartment he has now is GROSS and shitty and it’s in the city and i hate it, but he’s totally 100% fine with it. he seems to think it’s the best apartment ever, but it’s seriously gross. it’s trashed, and old and has bugs and i can’t stand even going over there!! plus, he’s become quite the slob, which he never was before. he used to be alllll about keeping things nice and clean and now idk what happened! there’s always dirty dishes everywhere & food laying all over the place and cat litter and just EW. plus, he smokes in his apartment and i can’t take it!! there’s like no ventilation or fans or anything and it constantly smells like an ashtray and it makes me wanna puke! he doens’t think it smells bad at all but it definitely does ;x he said about us moving out in august tho, before i start school again, so i’m hoping this will happen.

with school, i’ve pretty much done three years and have nothing to show for it because i keep changing my major. first i was psychology, then sign language interpreting, and now i’m thinking about going for education, altho i think i recently changed my mind and now i’m going to go for social work. and after i get my AA in that and a minor in something, keep going for my BA while i take the sign language classes so that way i can be a social worker/guidance counselor & have my interpreting degree to work in a school. but who the hell knows how long that’s going to take!! i already did three years, and transferred twice, and i’m tired of switching things and changing things. i wish i could just stick with ONE thing. theres just so much i want to do in the world and so hard for me to decide right now what i want to do with the rest of my life.

i still work at tgifridays. it’s been over four years that i’ve been there now, lol. it sucks that the economy sucks because business has really dropped, alho we’re offering all kinds of special deals and stuff right now which i hope will continue to bring people in. there’s been a lot of drama lately at work because of people requesting dates off of work, especially holidays and stuff. people are complaining about how the same people have off for every holiday & no one else gets a chance to get off on those days, which i understand, but i’m one of the same people that have off…and why? BECAUSE WHEN THE NEW CALENDAR COMES OUT, I GO STRAIGHT BACK AND PUT MY NAME DOWN MONTHS AHEAD OF TIME. i don’t wait until 3 weeks before fourth of july to request my name off and then bitch because i don’t get off for it. and the new peopel are saying, "well we werent here at those times when the calendar came out, so how is that fair for us?" well seriously, if you weren’t even there since january….what makes you think you have more right than me to have off when i’ve been there over four years??? its called seniority folks.