My world crashing down.

Not like it hasn’t happened before.

I was on his computer.. a text popped up on his desktop?? I don’t know, whatever. It was a girl, and her phone number.

So I checked his Facebook page, I knew they were friends, and had been somewhat together in the past.

Days worth of messages about how he thinks about her, wonders, "What if?" Talking about how he is going to go to GA to "visit family" and then buy her a drink. Complete with a mostly naked picture of her, and them discussing video chat. And him asking for her number.

I just don’t think I can ever trust him. When I told him that I read the messages, he tried to make an excuse. Really? That behavior can not be excused when you are with someone you are supposed to care for, and you’ve talked about marriage with.

I couldn’t imagine talking with someone in that way, I’m sick to my stomach. It’s all in knots. I guess I’m in a daze, unsure of what to do right now. I want to get away and start over.

Fuck this.