needing a change of pace

This year did not go exactly as I had hoped. Sitting on the Student Association as Vice President gives a student a key role being involved in the lives of the Student Body. But this year, other than being the Kingdom Movers Coordinator and Campus Cookout guy, I have been reduced to the coffee boy. I ended up being responsible for getting the coffee and donuts for the monthly Senate meetings. Anything else I attempted to do as my role provided ended up being met with resistance from the President and when I spoke up, I was knocked down by someone in the school’s administration.

And the Senate president calls me out or thwarts anything I suggest, or even ignored the obligations I am to do. One of the main roles as VP is to assist the President. I have been constantly overlooked. Today in fact, I was overlooked for something I should have been responsible for.

I don’t know. It’s hard to get my feelings out on this. I am pissed right now about it. And for the fact that I didn’t win the election for the Senate President for 2013-2014. Which is fine. But the way the elections were conducted and by the person (my opponent who won) who conducted the elections (see: election fraud?).

I lost by only 15 votes and I am not really upset I lost or even think there is actual fraud. but because of how this year went, I feel useless right now.

I just pray that this disappointment does not change into bitterness.

In three weeks, i find out where vicarage is and then I will wait out the 9 credits I am taking this summer and then my family and I will leave this campus for a year. Hopefully this will be the change of pace I need.