Excuses Excuses

So Um it’s been a long ass time since I’ve written and you probably all thought I was dead, but I’m not. (If there’s even a you that remembers me anymore) I sort of got away from writing and the in October of last year I discovered World Of Warcraft. I think it’s the greatest game ever and it’s swallowed my whole life. I quit my job to play. Really the only friends I still talk to now are Lucas cuz I’m crashing in his room at his parents house, Billy, and Matt. I am talking to them cuz i got them playing so now I see them in the game but hardly ever in real life. This addiction, and it is an addiction, is probably very bad for me but i can’t seem to stop. Worse yet I don’t want to. I feel so disconnected from my real life. I have been withdrawing further and further into this fantasy. Sometimes it seems that it is all I have left.

My brother left a little over a month ago for new mexico. He switched from Air Force Reserves to active duty in the army. I don’t know where he’ll be stationed yet but i worry about him. He tells me I’m stupid to worry and that he’ll be coming back, but that’s what everyone thinks right? I got to thinking that if he doesn’t come back our family name will die out. I try not to dwell on that thought.

Anyway I would like to catch up a little on some of the lives I have missed in this past year. I’m sorry I’ve been so lax in my writing. I can make no promises but I’ll try to make sure another year doesn’t go by before I write again.

So many of my favorites are gone. Weird how u can miss people you never met. I hope Donn (Get Fuzzy) made it out of Iraq ok. His diary is gone. I miss Kim’s Slim too. It’s good to see some of you are still here. Some of you are faves only now. I hope I can make your lists again. I feel as though I should have pages and pages of entries to make up for the year I was away. Too much has happened to say it all and somethings seem too private to talk about. Looking back through my old entries though it seems I didn’t hesitate to speak my mind even the painful and embarrassing. Perhaps I just need to get back into the swing of things. Hoping that this will help me to talk a more honest look at how my life is falling apart and try to fix it. If it’s even fixable at this point. I just have to believe it’s never too late.

Speaking of late though it’s 7:47 am and I should probably get some sleep. Good night all.