Lies and Rambling

There can be no true light,

Nothing to pull me out of this sorrow.

This depth of dark swallows me whole,

I did not ask to be held,

Did not ask for everything.

Just something,

Someone to hold me.

Should have come to expect,

Everyone lies.

No one can be trusted,

So many daggers in my back,

But still I turn it.

What a fool am I to give a chance?

A great fool,

Truly I should dress in my own motley.

Swing back into the dark,

Forget it all again.

No more lies,

No more pain.

No more,

Never again.

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I have said never every so many times,

Why is it that I keep following this frutiless circle?

It’s not like I was in love,

Two arms holding me with what I thought was feeling brought a certain warmth into the chill.

Wanted to hold that feeling,

Keep it however I could.

Perhaps the fault lies with me in part,

But I still cannot forgive such obvious lies.  

LIAR.

Speak the truth to me,

And I might be angry.

Speak the truth to me,

And I might be hurt.

Speak a lie to me,

About something so important,

And I will never forgive you.

The trust is gone.

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Do not think because I profess to be a fool,

That I am in truth blind.

My eyes have seen more in their years than many of more than twice,

Images of pain burned so deeply.

They see the deceptions,

They see the lies.

I know the false,

For I am a master of the deception,

The manipulation,

The game.

The game grew so tiring,

I regret much,

And I spoke these truths.

I have paid my dues though,

Lived the pain for my own "sins".

I spoke all these truths,

Opened my sorrow up for you to see,

And you spit in my face with a lie.

No,

Never again.