And no one will catch you when you fall

Today is December 28th. 

Christmas was a few days ago.  First one away from home.  It was hard, but these things do make us stronger.  My mom didn’t think I should have bought her anything, and that her gifts were not sufficient.  At first that offended me, but now it’s made me wonder.  How have a projected myself?  Does she think I’m that terrible of a person?

Truth be told, I think this was one of my favourite Christmases.  Never before have I had the means to give the gifts I feel people deserve.  I can’t come out and say to someone, "You really mean a lot to me."  But I can buy them gifts that can almost say it for me.  I just want them to know that I care, and how much I care…I don’t want to make them feel inadequate.  That was never my intention.  I want to show them how much I love them, and yet it seems to have the opposite affect.

I wish more people could just accept gifts graciously.  And not cry.  I hate it when they cry.