08/15/2011

I think I’ve been losing weight.  I almost lost my pants in a parking lot today, walking back to the car.  One moment, everything is find and the next my pants are sliding down, nay, falling down.  Talk about mortifying.  Luckily, I caught them in time.  I mean, I’m wearing really cute underwear and all—except for the fact they’re Halloween themed—but I don’t want to show them off.

There’s something that’s been bothering me about Sister’s BF.  He’s always saying things like, “You look cute today,” or “You’re a very attractive little red head” and shit like that.  Or he’ll make a comment about how some part of my anatomy (ass, mostly) is nice. 

The comments on my physical attractiveness are just annoying.  I do not want to hear it.  I do not NEED to hear it.  Beyond making sure I appear generally clean and well kempt, how I look is completely irrelevant to me.  I do not care if I have a nice ass, or if my sweater makes my rack look nice, or whatever.  I actually find such comments offensive, because I do not want to be seen as something that is meant to be looked at. 

I am not doing a very good job explaining it, but it creeps me out.  And it makes me want to punch him in the face.  It is as if he does not realize that our dynamic works because I refuse to be sexualized.  I mean, how many women would be comfortable leaving her boyfriend 350 miles away, living with another woman?  This only works because I am not a “threat,” nor does my sister perceive me as one. 

I become offended when I AM perceived as a threat.  I am not trying to steal your damn boyfriend, ok?  Jesus.

Sister’s BF is also always trying to hug me, despite the fact I hate being hugged and have articulated this both often and loudly.  It is as if he thinks I am just saying that to be “cute” and I really actually enjoy it.  That is not true.  I do not like being touched, especially by him.

Frankly, I do not think he is capable of a long-distance relationship.  But then, I scarcely think he is capable of zipping his fly without getting his dick stuck in it, so perhaps my opinion is not the most unbiased.