04/28/2013

I just want someone to beat the shit out of me.

I know there are people who would willingly do so.  I mean, I’m a member of FetLife for Christ’s sake.  There are people who’d get off on doing it.

Hell, I might even get off on it.  Given my fucked up response to pain after 14 years of self-injury, I’d probably like it.

But I don’t think having someone else do the beating really makes it any better.  It’d just be easier. 

The bruises on my hands and legs are nice, but could be so much better if someone else was doing the hitting.  I’m such a pussy.

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April 28, 2013

you actually joined fetlife o0 __ There’s one thing about letting someone else hurt you, it doesn’t give you the “control” boost SI does. I wish there was something I could do to help ):

April 28, 2013

Know what they say, if you want something done right… but, I wish for the same thing.