Urgh… Misery

I wish I could just say, Syd was driving me bonkers, and be done with it.  But I KNOW I’ll look back on this one day and think to myself, "What the heck happened?"  She’s just SO damned stubborn, and couple that with having to be RIGHT, and having an angry attitude, and you’ve got a kid who scratched another little girl and WOULD NOT apologize for it, and mean it.  She didn’t do it on purpose, or so she says.  But she wouldn’t calmly go to her and the girl’s mom and say "I’m sorry.  It was an accident and I really didn’t mean to do it."  No, she has to say "But I didn’t DO ANYTHING!"  And act all put out and angry.  She made ME mad, so mad, that I told her we were leaving.  And I swear to GOD, she never did "get it" meaning WHY she would have been better off apologizing.  Syd is a kid who was born thinking she’s right.  She’s never in the wrong.  I can’t explain this well, it’s just the way she is.  When she was 2, you couldn’t tell her anything then, either.  She has always been a child to hold dearly to her beliefs, and there’s NO convincing her she could, be, might possibly be wrong.  She’s just right, she knows it. It is this attitude for which I have often just wanted to scream my bloody head off… it’s more frustrating than the teenager’s current attitude.  Plus, she was pouty.  

I knew I shouldn’t have taken her.  Before we even left, she was boucing off the walls, and either FAR too happy, or FAR too angry, or FAR too sad.  

Dinner’s ready… I’m going to go eat.  Maybe this can be the end of the rant, eh?