NoJoMo Day 24 *edit*

Almost done with this month.  I’ve got to spend the next three days prepping for Thanksgiving, and truthfully, I’m so damned tired, I do not feel like it.  I came downstairs to be on the computer instead of going back to sleep, since Sammi isn’t making much noise.  I think she’s awake, and just playing in her room.  After I’m done with this, I’ll go check on her.  My back aches too, which is a common complaint for me these days.  I put Alex in her cradle last night, for maybe an hour before she started crying?  I got her out after that.  She’s sleeping now, which I imagine she really needs.  I have no idea if she slept that hour in her cradle or not.  I can’t imagine what would have woken her up, but I can’t imagine she would have laid there awake for an hour content to be there.  She is turning into a needy child, which I don’t quite understand.  Someone is almost always holding her.  Maybe she’s just spoiled?  I don’t know.  When she is left alone, she almost always cries.  She is not content to watch things go on around her, unless it’s the kids right in front of her, then she might be all right with it.  It’s just nearly impoosible to get anything done.  The whole baby wearing thing is difficult, I’m not sure if I’m even doing it right. 

Plus, I can’t hardly do anything right now, because my hands hurt so much from my eczema, and they’re all scratched up, and the skin has been splitting in spots… this makes it hard to wash dishes, open anything…what else?  Anyway, not fun.   Jerry’s none too happy with me for avoiding doing the dishes.  I hope he fixes the dishwasher for Thanksgiving.  He was not doing it, because quite frankly, the kitchen was staying cleaner when the dishes simply got hand washed after every meal.  But with my hands… I’m not doing them, and they are definitely going longer without getting done.  I was doing them quite a bit.

Oh hell, I almost forgot.  I got the Barbie house.  It’s not quite what I envisioned, but it is cute, and I suspect they’ll appreciate it.  Man, when we get some money, I still want to make or buy them a wooden house.  I found some on the net, they were 600 dollars.  Hm… maybe if we taught ourselves how to make them, we could sell them for 600 dollars.  It’s a thought anyway… I never follow through on this stuff for whatever reason, but it IS a thought.  Anyway, the house is sitting behind me, covered with a blanket.  I’m thinking I’ll hide it upstairs in my closet, behind my clothes.  I can hide some pretty big things back there without it being noticable. 

I can’t honestly see paying 600 dollars for a Barbie house, but if I HAD the money, I might.  I guess we’ll see how they like this one, and if it gets played with.  They’ve got 3 or 4 Barbie cars (2 are "Herbies" or VW Bugs), tons of dolls laying around the house, lots of clothes, compliments of me… heck *I’M* the one who might get the most use out of a Barbie house, lol.  I need to find a tuxedo for Ken… though actually I have NO idea where my Ken doll is.  I only had one, and I think he’s missing.  He’s around here somewhere though.  I have a wedding dress for Barbie, I need a tux for Ken… I’m going to marry those two off, lol.  That could be fun to play with the kids.

Well, I’m going to get off the computer.  I need to check on Sammi, and I’m HUNGRY… haven’t had breakfast yet, it’s time.

 *Edit*

I put out another Wanted on Freecycle, for a tree.  I’m really torn, I put it out anyway, but I am TRYING not to be too "greedy" towards the Universe, and yet, I am trying to let the Universe support me.  Of course, with my feelings the way they are, the Universe doesn’t have much to support.  I put it out anyway.  I’m sure this Christmas will be fine, as Christmases go… we have two 1 foot trees, and they may "have to do" for this year.  Blast the whole idea of having to have a live tree.  If Jerry hadn’t sold off my fake tree years ago, we’d have that.  I know a woman (on the net, not in person) who has a tree for every room in her house.  She starts decorating in October.  Seriously!  I didn’t think such a thing was even possible til I read that.  It’s funny what we think is "possible" til we are shown a new/different way.  And decorating in October?  Perish the thought!  LOL.

I don’t want to get myself all emotional over a tree.  I really don’t.  Dang Christmas anyway :).  I love it, but when there is no money….

Well, I have bought a lot of decorations in years past, the day after Christmas.  So we’ll have plenty of "stuff" to make it feel like Christmas.  The tree will hopefully not even be missed.  I was also planning on having the girls make paper snowflakes to hang up all over the house, that should be fun.  And I found a gingerbread house at Wal mart I was able to buy with the EBT card, so that’ll be another Christmas-y project we can do.  It really doesn’t have to be all about the tree.  And we DO have the small fake trees.  I’m just not sure where the decorations are… though they’re only a dollar at Wal mart, and we can always make our own!  Becca’s getting into oragami, so maybe she can make some decorations from paper… I can make some from foam with my sizzix… it could be a more traditional Christmas.  Well, we’ll figure SOMETHING out.  It’s all about the spirit (not the tree!)  *smiles*  It’ll be fine.