Life goes on

Syd and Shabree had school today.  We sent them, because we weren’t sure that the homeschool was going to "accept" them, and truthfully, Jerry was hoping they’d want to continue going to school.  No dice there, lol.  I figured as much, though with Shabree, she surprised me with telling me she does NOT want to go back (mean teacher).  I figured she WOULD want to go back.  Actually, I’m not all that surprised, truthfully.  Shabree is a social kid, but she’s SO sensitive.  *I* was sensitive, so I can completely understand how she feels.  I think I might have been better off being sheltered from school.  I can never say for sure, but school really impacted my life.  So I think it just might be better if I home school her, simply because I think she could use being sheltered from school.  She’ll be much better able to focus on her studies if she’s not concerned with the social aspect and how she thinks her teacher feels about her (even if it’s actually her entire class).

I’m down to 210.  I’ve been working really hard at the weight loss, watching what I eat, exercising a bunch.  That’s 16 pounds down.  I should put up a weight loss ticker, maybe.  I am partially worried that if I get TOO crazy about this, I’ll lose all incentive to do it.  I also need a new "goal."  The last time I seriously lost weight, I wanted to be able to go on our annual vacation and show everyone how much weight I’d lost (which I did, even though I’d gained some of it back), and so that was a good goal.  This last time, I just wanted to be able to fit into my jeans again… achieved, yay.  So now I need a new goal.  I suppose the next size down would be a good goal.  I have some size 16 jeans and shorts I’d like to be able to get back into.  And then, I’d like to be under 195, which I haven’t seen in a VERY long time.  The last time I did a good weight loss, I got down to 195, and then I think I just quit.  I don’t have any pregnancy goals, so that’s not going to work.  I need a goal I can stick with, too.  It’s got to be something that really motivates me.  I’m already pretty healthy, I can basically keep up with the kids, I would like to be able to swim like I did when I was younger and in somewhat better shape.  Oh, I know, I want to be able to do dance dance revolution without my knees aching, that would be WONDERFUL.  I should see how I do at this weight… maybe they won’t ache that much, though I THINK even when I was 195 last year, that I could not do DDR.  Well, I should give it a shot anyway.  I’m getting awfully bored with step.  I’d like to be able to do DDR and incorporate that into my routine of things I do to keep in shape.  I won’t do it if it hurts my knees though, but I suspect it’s just putting so much weight on them that’s doing me in.  If I can’t do it today, then I will wait until I’ve lost another 15 pounds to try again.  That’ll be a couple of months at this rate.  I did 90 minutes or so today of step (on the Wii), and I’m going to shoot for another 30 minutes before today is up.  Maybe I should go do 10 minutes now, while the baby is still asleep… yea, why not?  I’ll write more later, if I am able…