Let’s see if I can finish today’s entry, shall we?

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The kids are off track, so here it is after 9, and the 3 oldest are up… Sammi’s in bed, she was SO crabby, my nerves are SHOT. I took the 3 youngest to Burger King for "value menu" food… except for the french fries. I always pay 2.00 for the medium fries, because the value menu fries are a rip-off… you get like quadruple the fries getting the medium for another dollar. SO wrong! I shouldn’t even GET the fries, but then we’d all be hungry after eating our tiny little hamburgers or chicken nuggets.
Anyway, I got ONE whole scrapbook page done while sitting there. Sammi would NOT go play, kept drinking water and soda by my pages, and in general was driving me completely insane. And then about 8:15, after asking a woman for the time, I realized that Becca had wanted to be picked up, she was out at 8, and *I* had our ONLY vehicle! Oh… CRAP! So we scrambled out of there, leaving a book behind that actually belonged to Becca (really, it was destined to be lost, I’d already rescued it off the street when it went flying off the van as we drove to Burger King) and I wasn’t going back to get it.
Then we got to Karate to pick her up… and she’d already headed home on her bike. Whoops… oh well. At least she got home without worry. I felt SO bad. I apologized to Jerry and to Becca when we got home, and she was just like "It’s okay, I just got home." And she was happy that we’d bought her a sandwich she’d asked for (I told her if we had money, we’d buy it for her, so that was part of the scramble to leave) So… no harm done. Though Sammi screamed the ENTIRE way home, and I just yelled at her to stop. I shouldn’t yell at a 19 month old. But I already feel guilty enough. Sigh.
I’m tired, and I’m sore. I’m sore because the seats at Burger King are HARD. I’m tired because I get 6 hours of sleep a night, does not seem to matter WHEN I go to sleep, that’s how much I get, and then if I am able, I get another couple later on…well, today, I got an extra hour and a half, but I’ve basically been up continually since 11 this morning. Got my nap in early. So hopefully I go to bed early tonight, and sleep longer than 6 hours. I won’t get into all the night wakings. I’ve already complained about that enough. The JOYS of pregnancy.

Today, as I sort of mentioned, was the girl’s last day of school for a month. The school is over-crowded, so they go for 3 months max at a time, then they get 3-4 weeks off. So they will go back for about 3 weeks in June, have another month or so off, then start the next grade level. Though Becca’s grades are now ALL D’s and Fs, so we’re not sure she’ll be promoted. There isn’t really an indication. The teacher hasn’t CHECKED the box for retention danger, but how do you promote a kid with all D’s and F’s?
Isn’t it interesting though, that they go back for a WHOLE 3 weeks? Some days I just have to scratch my head and ask "What IS the point?" But they have to spend so many days in school… and the less time off, the less they seem to lose. Though with Shabree, we’re going to have to really remember to keep up with her sight words and her alphabet, and do lots of reading.
Oh, 9:30.. going to send them all to bed. BRB
The decision has been made to let them finish watching the show they’re watching, which is over at 10. I told them that if they didn’t turn off the tv as soon as it is finished, they won’t be watching ANY tv tomorrow.
I really don’t know where today went. I went to pick up Shabree at 11:10, she usually gets out at 11:30, but today they had a walking field trip to the local high school, and they didn’t get back til about 11:50, and then we probably didn’t get out of there until noon or 10 after with getting lunch, and a container of ours that the teacher had. Sammi was at home asleep, so no biggie…but it kind of felt like a waste of time…which is the story of my life lately.
After that, what DID I do? The other girls got home around 12:30, minimum day due to the track off, I guess I went and read and responded to emails, got my OD fix, lol, then Jerry told me I needed to go Western Union the mortgage payment off, because he was supposed to stay by the phone waiting for a call on a deal that’s been dragging on FOREVER (and when they DID finally call back, AFTER I got back from the Western Union… they said it’s going to be NEXT TUESDAY before this thing goes! My jaw dropped, WTH?) I also had to go get gas, paid with quarters, showed Becca how to put gas in the van. Then came back, the girls went into the pool, and Sammi was down for another nap. At 6, I took the 3 to Burger King, Bec went to Karate (and that’s another thing… we can’t pay for Karate this month for Shabree and Syd… Bec’s paid up for another year and a half)
I just got served. Almost 10 at night (they work til 11 he said!) It’s from Discover Card. I owe them 4,000+. They’ve been holding onto the paperwork since Dec of last year, because the bankruptcy kept them from doing anything about it til it was dismissed. You would THINK I’d be really upset about this, but when it rains, it pours, and I’m just too tired to care right now. I don’t think they can put a lien on the house because it’s in Jerry’s name as his "sole and separate property" (not to mention the house is worth about 200,000 LESS than what we bought it for, so good luck on collecting ANYTHING for about 10 years there. We’ll ALL be lucky if the market rebounds within that time). No wages to attach at the current time. What else? Well, if we get money, we’ll pay it, otherwise, there isn’t anything we can do anyway. We’ll pay it when we’re able to. I am so tired of not having any money, and being in scramble mode, I just can’t even put it into words anymore how at the end of my rope I am. Just to clarify, I’m NOT trying to avoid paying the bill. If I get money that is beyond "survival mode" money, we’ll pay it. It’ll make me feel better to know I don’t owe anyone any money. It won’t do much for my credit, but so be it.
I have to wonder why Jerry opened the door to a stranger at night. They could have been planning some kind of home invasion. Good thing it wasn’t anything sinister.

I’m beginning to ramble. Jerry said he was going to call it a night and do something NOT work related. WHOOHOO! I think I’ll join him in whatever he decides to do. Anyway, time to post this and relax my brain. I’m feeling just really fried right now, but it has to do more with screeching kids, arguing kids, kids who won’t listen… get the picture? The Discover Card thing will take care of itself at some point… maybe I get a job and they attach the wages then… that WILL suck, but oh well. Hopefully, as with ALL our hopes… Jerry closes a deal and we have the freedom to pick and choose our battles.  At that point, we’ll start paying them all off. Anyway, I’m brain dead, so it would be good to quit while I’m ahead ;). Or AM I behind? I’m not sure!

*Edit*

You know what’s funny/ironic? I really DIDN’T finish this entry. I rambled here and there, but I didn’t really finish. Too funny! Now I’m going to go watch a movie with my husband, so I STILL won’t finish it!!!! LOL!