Just stuff

I’m having a baby shower! Please visit:

http://www.webbabyshower.com/mullen/

I got a "nap" from 8-11 tonight, so I’m only now just getting tired again, and it’s 1:30.  I am going to try and keep this short so I can attempt to get something that resembles a decent night’s sleep.  Ha ha.  Oh, I’m feeling so… rotten.  Sad, melancholy…
I spanked Shabree today.  We NEVER spank.  I only did it once.  I’d sent her to her room because she was just making the HUGEST fuss about someone having to help her with the dishes (putting them away, which I KNOW she’s perfectly capable of)  This is a pretty big power play between her and I.  I tell her do the dishes, she says she needs help.  I tell her she DOESN’T need help, she needs to just DO them, she says, but Mommy, I NEED help.  I tell her to just DO THE DISHES.  But mommy… "NO, GO TO YOUR ROOM"…  "I"LL DO THE DISHES!"  No, GO TO YOUR ROOM. I practically drag her to the stairs, so she goes upstairs, goes to her room, and proceeds to slam the door, and again, and again, and again.  I go upstairs, she’s lying on a mattress on her floor, and I spank her butt, to which she starts screaming about how her butt hurts.
Crap… sigh.
Becca volunteered to do the dishes, I told her no way, Shabree was going to do them.  I finally gave up, changed Sammi, told Shabree she needed to calm down before she would be allowed to do anything.  But I had to tell her like FIVE times to calm down already.  She was really trying/testing my patience.
The problem is, this is almost always in some form or fashion how it goes.  She will only do the dishes quietly if she has help… and I may as well do the darn things myself, because her version of help is that someone puts the dishes on the counter for her, so she can then put them away.  I mean…how much freaking farther would I have to do to simply put them away myself?  It’s stupid!  But it’s NOT the point.  And truthfully, I’m SO SICK of her learned helplessness…. she tells me she CAN’T learn her alphabet because she’s "only 5" 
To which I say, YEA RIGHT!
I usually manage to keep calm with Shabree… really, much more than Sydni.  Becca, she tests me and I get irritable, but it’s Syd who really gets under my skin usually.  But Shabree’s "I’m only five" really pisses me off. 

Anyway, enough about THAT.  The other thing that has me kind of "going" tonight, is that Jerry STILL hasn’t gotten me the stuff I need for the blasted Medi-CAL.  And I gently "nudged" him a couple of days ago, telling him he’d better do some research on unassisted birth, because we weren’t going to have money for a hospital birth.  His response?  "We’re not doing a home birth.  I WILL get you the info."  However…two days later…. nothing.  More sighing.

I just got done reading paid advertising emails… bunch of garbage MLMs, but I got two cents per email, so as long as I refrain from giving them any more of my information… well, I can sit here and earn 14 cents clicking on stupid MLM opportunities, I guess.  Why not? 

I guess I’ll to to bed… I am PRETTY sure there’s more to say…oh yea, Becca got suspended for a day for hitting a girl at school.  Sigh again.  They pick on her, she wasn’t totally in the right, wasn’t totally in the wrong… she was just frustrated.  But I told her she really needs to learn to control herself, because they don’t suspend adults, they jail them.

Anyway, I’m going to go to bed…which is currently occupied by both Shabree AND Sydni, and I’m not really sure how that happened, I’d told Shabree she could lay down with me, must have been asleep when Sydni crawled in.  I have a vague memory of it, because I remember telling them to please be quiet so I could SLEEP already… and I wasn’t actually THAT nice about it… I never am when I’m asleep.. if they wake me up, then I have a hard time getting back to sleep, so I tend to be crabby about my sleep.  Anyway, I’m not sure I’m going to have room on the bed, because I expect Shabree will have taken over my spot.  It can be dangerous sleeping with two little girls when you’re pregnant, you never know when one of them might shove a knee into your abdomen while they sleep.  I’m serious!  Maybe Jerry will move them for me…. a girl can hope.