7/22/07

I’m not sure if I’ve ever mentioned this, but I am a FAST reader.  Let’s just put it this way, I am DONE with Harry Potter!  All 800 pages read yesterday, in the space of…well, I’m not sure, because I didn’t get up til about 10 a.m., then had to have breakfast…started in on it, but then Jerry made me clean… then it was PRETTY much clear sailing, except for a dinner break.  I probably started it around 1, and I know I finished it at about 2 a.m.  So MAYBE 12 hours to read the whole thing?  Maybe?  Anyway, I read fast, always have.  I am the type of person who once she picks up a book, CANNOT put it down.  Well, not for long anyway.  So I actually try NOT to pick up too many books, lol.  I do love to read though, and as far back as I can remember, always loved to read.  I can remember being 9, and wanting desperately to read Nancy Drew, I think it was, and my teacher telling me that those books had no pictures… and you know, I didn’t care, but somehow she was telling me no.  When I was 10, I went to Catholic school, and we used to go to the public library, and I could get ANY book I wanted, and I used to bring home STACKS of books and I’d get 4 or 5 read over the weekend, not going to sleep until about 2 in the morning (oh is THIS a familiar story!)  I DO remember not being able to go on a field trip with the rest of my class in the 5th grade… and they were gone all day, to Denver or something, we lived an hour away from Denver.  So at some point, they tested my reading level that day, and I really enjoyed that a lot.  However, the point is, that at the age of 10, I had a college age reading level.  I could read and tell you exactly what I’d read.  I also remember visiting my grandpa and grandma, and my grandpa didn’t believe me when I told him how well I could read, so I told him I’d prove it to him, and I took the very book he was reading, and read it out loud to him.  He was pretty darn impressed, lol.  Makes me cry a little to think about it… I loved that man SO much, and he was one of my true believers.  I went to their house one summer, grandma taught me how to cook, and grandpa taught me how to play cribbage, and we used to "skunk" each other on a regular basis… he never really pulled his punches with me, but at first he did point out things I was missing.  I think that was the summer I went from 10 to 11, but I don’t remember for sure.  I think so though.  He used to let me drive, sitting on his lap, when I was maybe 5 or 6 (LOL).  THAT was a thrill.  He was such an awesome grandpa.  Grandma was pretty neat too, but Grandpa SO loved kids, it was obvious everywhere we went.  I have TONS of fond memories of visitng them.

Man, I’m certainly on a ramble today, aren’t I?  Well, I won’t reveal anything about Harry Potter, suffice it to say, GOOD BOOK.  My daughter said "That must be a pretty funny book" because I was laughing so much.  Well, you know, some of it IS rather ironic, and I have a deep sense of irony.  So some people might not find it as funny as I did. 

Oh, what else?  Not much really, got up at 11 today, ate some breakfast.  Rick made omelets for breakfast.  I must have a mental block with omelets.  I like eggs, but I cannot eat omelets… they make me feel ill somehow.  Not quite like I want to throw up, but darn close.  I’m still feeling tired, too.  I remember practially begging Jerry to get up with the baby, and I THINK he still kind of ignored her, because I remember thinking, I am going to have to get up with her.  I don’t know why, but I find it a little annoying that even on the weekends, I end up getting up with her all night.  Okay, I AM a stay at home mom… and most weekends, I just do it.  I don’t even really complain about it.  I mean, I don’t REALLY mind, but I AM in a constant state of tiredness, it feels like… like I NEVER quite get enough sleep.  And I do feel I am partially to blame, because if I went to sleep when the baby did (yea right!) then I would probably get enough sleep. 
And… if I go to bed early, Jerry gets upset with me… he tells me that on the nights me goes to bed early, I go to bed late, and on the nights he goes to bed late, I go to bed early.  Well, I am here to tell you that I RARELY go to bed early… I have to be pretty exhausted before I’ll go to bed early.  On the late nights though… I’m just craving time to myself.  Jerry gets shortchanged… he works 15 hour days easy…sometimes they’re closer to 18 or 20… and I NEVER know what the plan is for that day.  But since I spend ALL my time with one of the kids at least… I mean, even when he takes the kids to the park, he leaves Sammi at home.  If I get a break from my kids, it’s MAYBE once a month, but typicaly more like once every other month…so I will go 2 months with no significant breaks from all the kids, well, no time to MYSELF, because Jerry and I will do the "date night" thing.  But time to myself is laughable.  Am I wrong to feel…. tired of that?  I mean, I don’t really feel resentful… it’s just that I crave time to myself.  And Jerry DOES seem to feel resentful of that fact.  This is probably the toughest thing we face in this relationship, because we both crave time to ourselves, and we never really get it. 

Jerry is taking the kids to Costco, and the baby is down for a nap, so I’m going to get a LITTLE time to myself.   I’m trying to download some things on the mac, and it is SO slow.  I am starting to want a new computer so bad.   I probably shouldn’t complain, but it’s SOOO slow.  It’s over 4 years old now, probably closer to 5.  The technology is so outpaced right now, it’s not funny.  The best I’m probably going to get though, is to upgrade it with some hardware, and MAYBE some RAM, which will help the speed a bit, but it’s got what would be considered a slow processor now, and so that’s going to make it slow.  I would LOVE to have a dual processor, 2 GB of RAM, 1 or 2 terabytes of hard drive space (hey, I’m getting into digital scrapbooking, I NEED the space!  LOL)
I can DREAM ON.  But that computer can’t even download and unzip without it "locking up" which means for me, basically, I can’t do anything with it while it "thinks" about what I’ve asked it to do!  GRRRR.  And my powerbook’s power cable is on the fritz… this will be the third cable I’ve gone through!  I HATE to say this, but Apple doesn’t make their power cables very well.  Even Rick’s computer, which is much newer had a problem with it, and I had to order him a new one.

Well, Linda called, so I am going to post.  I may edit later though.  I am feeling pretty chatty today.
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