2/28/07

Man, my computer is running SLOOOW tonight.

There is so much to say, and yet, I can never stay on this page long enough to say it.   I will probably end up keeping ti short… if that’s even possible for me.
My friend Linda is back in the hospital.  Last week she had a heart attack-her 3rd, and yesterday as she was taking her DH to the hospital, she started having tightness, shortness of breath, and when she finally made it to her doctor, which was a good hour and a half away from the airport, he took one look at her and sent her to the hospital.  He may be operating on her tomorrow, he may wait, there’s no telling.  I need to call her in the morning and find out what’s going on.  I SHOULD have called her this evening, but I didn’t think about it, and ended taking a nap at 7… I was supposed to take the kids to McDonalds. 
I’m trying to get prepped for a crop this Saturday.  I would like to finish up my swaps, and get some actual PAGES done, that would be novel…  It’s 2 a.m., and I’m finally getting around to this, after spending most of my day/night writing LOOOOONG emails.
I’m kind of sad, because Joann’s FINALLY put the Bazzill paper on sale, and of COURSE, I have NO money to be buying paper with.  There are some colors I would LOVE to have a 50 pack of… it’s amazing how often I am getting into some colors, like Bazzill Red.  I LOVE Bazzill, it’s such pretty paper, and they just put out this new shiny paper called Bling, and I just love it.  I can’t wait to use it on a page.  So far, as with almost everything, I’ve only used it on swaps.
Well, as I said, we are out of money.  I tried to buy baby formula (yesterday for me) and EVERY credit card I tried was denied.  I’m down to the last of it.  I have been breast feeding her as much as possible, but there gets to be a point where I have to give her a bottle so she doesn’t starve.  Usually I just breast feed her enough to keep some milk flowing, make sure she is able to eat through the night without needing a bottle, and for comfort.  This is really the first time I’ve had to breast feed because it was the only thing I could afford to do.  In fact, I’m going to have to go up there soon to feed her, and I’m not leaking or anything, so I’m not even sure how much milk I’m producing, though I’m trying every trick in the book to up the amount… using heat on my breasts, massaging them (which don’t get any ideas about!), feeding her more often (like every hour and a half to two hours)  If it seems like she’s just trying to nurse, and removing her head and screaming, I give her a bottle.  Jerry was able to get 50 dollars cash off one credit card, and I’m hoping my Discover card has SOMETHING on it, though I really should call and see before I go using it… so for now I can buy some formula… the Wal Mart brand is only 11.88, so that’s not bad, but that typically only lasts us a month.  It may be time to start getting some cereal to feed her at night, to help fill her stomach and get her through the night.  I am not a big fan of this, but if it’s fairly nutritious, then I’ll be all right with it.
I should really get to bed.  It’s almost 2:20, and I am supposed to be getting the kids up early, and I was NOT able to take them to McDonalds today, because at 11 I asked them to clean up… 30 minute job, tops, right?  No… at 7 I fell asleep, and they were FINALLY done.  We didn’t go.  I’m going to get some scrapping done if it’s the last thing I do!  Of course, I’ll have a couple of hours while they’re at Karate to work on things, and I can probably work on things for a couple of hours in the morning at McDonalds… and I think I’ll take an attitude of the housework can go to hell, I do NOT feel like chasing after them for it.  Shabree has speech therapy at 1, so whatever we do has to be in the morning.

Well, I have printed out quite a few things, so probably have enough to take to the crop… I would HOPE.  I mean, I’ll do more prep work, just not tonight.  I need to figure out what I’m going to do for some deco squares I have to do for a swap… that should be an interesting challenge.  And I have to pull from the stash of things I have here, because I  have no money to buy anything.  That will limit me somewhat.  Of course, I can wait and see what the future brings, maybe I can buy this stuff later.  I don’t know.  I want them out of the way NOW.

Okay, I’m getting off the computer, even if only so I can concentrate on my scrap stuff (which by the way, I cleaned up the scrap room this last weekend, and it looks, and feels, so much better.)