12/26/06
Well, despite everything, all the financial worries, all the frustration with the kid’s attitudes and constant asking if they could open presents on Christmas Eve, the worry I wouldn’t GET anything 😉 LOL, it turned out to be a GREAT Christmas. For once, we waited until Christmas morning to open everything, and the kids were amazed at how many presents were under the tree, lol. I found I had a LOT of stuff I’d bought on sale last year. Poor Shabree though, I mean, she’s only 4, and she’s got two older sisters who just try to RUIN Santa Claus for her. Gees, let a kid have their fun for goodness sakes. Jerry put a little sign on the log holder in the fireplace that said "Youch" like Santa had hurt himself. Well, Becca tells them, "That looks like Daddy’s writing, and he spelled Yuck wrong" !!!! Sigh. And she says this to US in front of Shabree. I sent Shabree out of our room, and asked Bec why she had to ruin this for her? Syd seems very bitter about it, and poor Shabree just asks "Mommy, is Santa real?" What can I say? "What do you think?" She says "I think he’s real" and I just nod my head, and Shabree goes to her sisters and says "Mommy says Santa is real"
Well, Santa is much like God, a matter of faith. And maybe not quite like God, maybe more like Disneyland, Santa is a matter of magic, and of hope, and of believing in something good, kind, and fun about the world… and Becca just wants to ruin it. It’s sad. Anyway, she apologized, and tried for the rest of the day to refrain from making comments about how daddy is Santa.
I got what I asked for… a Dance Dance revolution. Jerry had to buy a PS2 to be able to get it for me though… you won’t hear me complaining though. And that present above any others, has gotten the most use of all. From everyone. I mean, it’s mine, and it’s totally so I can exercise in the house and have some fun, but I barely got to use it til last night because of the kids. Nursing makes me ravenous, so between that, and the dancing, I should be able to lose some weight… of course, with the nursing, it really does make me so hungry that I end up eating a LOT, and I eat way too much sugar, as I crave it terribly, like I’ve got a constant case of PMS (not with the moods though, just the sugar tooth). We had 200 dollars in HoneyBaked Ham store gift certificates, so we got a honey baked ham and some side dishes… loved everything but the stuffing, which was awful. I also made broocoli and rice-YUM, and picnic potato salad, which we haven’t had in ages, and I haven’t made in YEARS… not since I was a kid, probably. That was yummy, but needed more mustard, so Shabree and I added mustard to ours. The other two girls don’t care for mustard, and of course, Sammi isn’t eating solid foods yet. Speaking of her, she’s asleep in her swing behind me. I like to pull her swing into my scrap room, it generally keeps her from crying. She’s a social kid. I’m wondering how much like Sydni she’s going to be, since Sydni was SUPPOSED to be born on the 20th or 21st… and they both are pretty clingy and need to be around someone constantly. Sammi does NOT like to be by herself, and neither does Syd. Heck, you can barely put Sammi down, and if Sydni is by you, she’s got to have some piece of her body on yours, even if it’s just a foot. LOL. Shabree and Becca, they’re my independant souls… and water signs, both. I shouldn’t say quite independant, but tough, and able to stand on their own two feet. Shabree barely will let you kiss her or hug her, and Becca won’t turn you down, but doesn’t really initiate it either… and neither does Shabree. Now I’m that way, but Jerry is more affectionate, though NOT NECESSARILY with the girls. Who knows? I do believe in astrology to a certain extent.
I should get back to my dancing. I took a short break to have some food, and thought I’d write a little while I was at it. I have the house to myself, except for Samantha, who is asleep now.
The only problem I’m having with the dancing is that my knee, the right one, hurts after awhile, and I find it difficult to keep up, even on beginner mode, the more I do it. I’m not sure how much sleep I’m getting though. Jerry says this morning "We need to stop sleeping so late" and I told him "I’m not sure how late I slept, because I kept having to wake up to feed the baby" I was in and out, but solid sleep? Eh… who knows? NO ONE around here GETS that 1) I am up constantly with the baby, and 2) I take time for myself when I can get it, usually late at night, so I end up sleeping in. Yes, I waste half my morning, YES, I feel guilty for doing so, but doggone it, I have got the kids all day long. I want to be able to do my scrapping when I can… so if I go to bed at 2, and then Sammi wakes up for feeding at 2:30, and doesn’t go back to sleep until 3 or 3:30, and then wakes up again at 5, and again at 6:30, and I’m up for half an hour each time… well, I’m getting like 3 hours sleep…so yes, the temptation to go back to sleep and sleep until 11 is irrestible. Sigh…. I am NOT going to win on this one.
One more thought before I get off OD… I went to apply for a job at Apple the other day… online, and they want a resume, and they only have full time openings, according to the webstie, which won’t work at all…. and I’m still not completely sure I WANT to go to work… I like my freedom that I have with taking care of the kids, even if it can be a PITA, it’s fun, and I love them, and love being with them, most days ;). It would be nice to resharpen my skill set, and be around adults, but then I’d have to deal with the whole taking time off to take a vacation… etc… and not to mention the BS when they want to over schedule me and the like… Job BS…. though we could use the money. Eh, I don’t know. I do and I don’t. I asked Jerry for help wtih my resume, and so far, he hasn’t helped… still, there’s that whole lack of follow through that I have always had, though it’s been better in the past few years. Oh that reminds me, I NEED to make appointments with the dentist…I really should get to that now. I guess the lack of follow through just shows I really DON’T want to do this….