11/19/07

I’m starting to feel with OD, like I do with Yahoo Answers…get me off.  Ugh.  I spent my morning with Breezy, helping out in her class, they had "Stone Soup" which is something of a friendship thing.  What was kind of amazing… a bunch of 5 and 6 year olds right?  They ALL loved the soup, loved the bread, loved the milk, and they ate all the soup.  No picky kids to be had in that class. 
There IS one little boy, he must have ADD or ADHD, or who knows for sure?  He’s smart, just has a difficult time focusing, modulating his voice, oh, and he was SO whiny…  he kept crying about his boo boo.  I rubbed his back, which surprised me, it worked, and helped him focus some.  He was also a little nervous…"Where is my number (insert number here)?"  in an almost panicked voice.  When I asked him if he wanted to color his page, he said no, I told him that was fine (I mean, the focus is on ordering the numbers!) so Breezy, little miss BOSSY, pipes up "You’re supposed to color it!"  Mrs Hickman told her, It’s fine honey.   Aside, she said, we’re picking our battles today and I just nodded at her, and shushed Shabree myself.  LOL.  I KNOW picking battles!  Becca has ADD.  Syd shows some signs, but can be focused, usually that is a matter of choice, but sometimes it’s frustration that does it to Syd.  You learn what’s important, and when you should just move on and try to go back to that one later…

I myself am feeling unfocused.  My mind is just swimming.  I’ve been reading this one diary, about abstinence.  For me, reading this diary is sort of like reading the bible… I just want to SCREAM.  I had to give up reading the bible, because every time I did, it made me so angry I wanted to throw the stupid book across the room!  But I don’t feel like getting flamed, so WILL NOT get into that here.  Let’s just leave it at, I have SERIOUS issues with the bible.  I don’t like that people take it as the WORD of GOD.  MY God has such a powerful, overwhelming love, it’s hard to feel it for very long… I want to cry when it goes away, because I don’t think ANY human has loved me that much.  It’s overwhelming, it truly is.  I cannot help but feel the bible is such a bastardization of God’s intentions…on the other hand, I once heard a man say, Who are we to truly KNOW what God wants?  We understand so little of God.  Which is very true, though I HAVE had some spiritual experiences that lead me to believe that God is a loving God, not an angry one.  There is just too much anger and hate in the bible.

Anyway… so my main thing about this guy, is NOT that he promotes abstinence, but that he promotes it even between a married man and woman, and believes it should ONLY be used for procreation, and even at THAT,  a couple could go medical means and forever remain virgins… Oh my LORD.  NO.  He says there are too many "risks" to having sex.  I told him LIFE IS RISK!!!!

I’m going to post, I want to show Jerry this guy’s diary.