1/2/07

My desk area, not to mention my whole scrap room, is due for a major cleaning.  I’m not sure when I’m going to get around to this…I should be exercising, or scrapping, I should NOT be on the computer, that’s for sure.

I’m trying to cut out a title on the wishblade, and I guess the driver corrupted again, because it quits every stinking time I send the file to the cutter… grrr…. I HATE PCs… the next Wishblade is supposed to work on the mac, and I’m going to see what I need to do to swing one of those.  I THOUGHT restarting the PC was going to work, but… NOPE.  I guess I’ll reinstall the stupid thing.  This is all i use the PC for… the wishblade.  I’ve got ALL KINDS of programs on it, but all I use it for is the wishblade… it just pisses me off that it crashes so often.  Now I’ve got to go back and FIND it to  reinstall it, what a PAIN. 

Okay, vent over, moving on…

I’m TRYING to lose weight, or at least not gain so much back… I just crave sweets, it feels like.  Today has been okay, and I managed to get some exercise in… hope to do some more.  I bought a new scale, it came with a pedometer, so that was cool and useful.  It does tend to get reset too easily though.  But yesterday I walked at least 10,000 steps, and that was just around the house, and doing the dancing.  Today I’ve actually only walked about 4,000, but I haven’t had any CAKE either!

Dang it!  I reinstalled the program and the controller, and it’s STILL quitting!  ARGH!

Hm, maybe I did NOT install the driver… weird.

Doggone it.  Restart.

I’m hungry again… I have had about 3 bowls of split pea soup tonight, and I’m STILL hungry… and I really don’t think I’m nursing that much… I’m TRYING, but I’m not doing as much as I could/should.  Heck, she sucks my breasts dry, and then half an hour later wants more, and there doesn’t seem to BE anymore.  And THAT is why I’m supplementing.  But I’ve gained something like 10 pounds since giving birth to her, and that bothers me a lot.  So I want to take the weight back off, and I’m worried if I diet, that my milk supply will diminish even more (not that I’m really doing what I should be to improve it in the first place!)  so I’m trying to go the exercise route, but I’m still fighting the cravings that make me want to go have a piece of wonderful Costco cake and mint chip ice cream smothered in magic shell :).  Yea, want it, want it bad!!!!
Hm… maybe I should have an egg instead?  Some fruit? 
I can’t gain any more weight, and this is the most dangerous time of the day for me… I ALWAYS want something really sugary at this time… which is 11 p.m. 

Okay, I’ve got to distract myself.  🙂

I’m going to get off the computer… I can’t seem to fix the wishblade, and I will need to, but I guess I’ll try later.