1/16/09

Took Bec to the dr today, to see about putting her back on some ADD meds.  She’s just… doing so horribly in school, and she was previously diagnosed, so we shall see what happens.  I also got some numbers to the local "mental health" place, and we’ll see about some family counseling.  She’s now on Ritalin, and we’ll see how that works out for her.  Hopefully well enough that she can pull things together enough to go on to the 8th grade next year.

I feel… sad.  And I don’t know why.  Ergh… Sammi evidently pooped in the tub, and I guess Sydni was yelling at her, and I didn’t want to go deal with Syd (I did not know at this point that Sammi had done that.)  So Jerry huffily did it.  We’re BOTH tired, but he says he’s the only one in this house without his own space.  But that’s not true.  He has an office, and the kids stay out of it about as well as they stay out of my scraproom.  Maybe they stay out of here better, I don’t know.  I wasn’t going to argue with him.  However, my sadness started earlier, and I can’t figure out why I’m sad, and I’m having a hard time shaking the feeling.

I have now managed to read all 4 books in the Twilight saga, and I wasn’t impressed until I got to book 4.  Now THAT one kept me on the edge of my seat.  The rest all just seemed too… something.  I don’t know.  She seemed whiny, petulant, and very childish (God, am I SHOWING my freaking age, or what?)  Plus, I didn’t think they were all THAT well written.  Harry Potter was better, by a mile.  However, she did a really great job with book 4, and it’s the best yet.  Of course, all the books DID want me to go on to read the next one, so they couldn’t have been THAT bad.  It’s an interesting take on Vampire mythology.  I think part of her problem is that she’s battling Lestat and Louis and Akasha, et all, for a place in my heart, lol… and of course, they’re two VERY different myths, so part of me is thinking "No, she got it wrong!"  However, with book 4, even though it was different from The Vampire Trilogy (whoops, it was 4 books, but now I can’t remember what it was called after the 3rd book… oh well.  I’m speaking of the books by Anne Rice), I loved the direction she took it.  I know I’m being… coy, but I don’t want to ruin anything for anyone who hasn’t read them.  They are a good (and for me, quick) read, and I can recommend them honestly.  Especially if you have ANY love for vampires at all.  I do, but the market is just saturated, and some of the books available out there are just crap. 

Okay… I went and fed the baby, now I’m back like an hour later.  Still tired.  I almost fell asleep, and if the light in my room had been off, I’ll bet I would have.

We went to Hometown Buffet for lunch today… it’s nice to have all the bills paid, and we only spent 20 on lunch.  Then we went and wandered around Target, got Becca a nice shirt (black, good color, hides most stains) for 4.24 on clearance, got the ink cartridge I’m going to need, and found a very nice cruise sticker for about 4 dollars.  I usually shy away from stuff like that, but I promised myself I was going to let myself start buying nicer things for my scrapbooks.  When we actually had money, I never bought truly nice, expensive stickers like Jolees, because I always thought I could do better myself… and I did, but then, I didn’t.  I don’t know… I just got to thinking that I would like to have REALLY nice looking pages, so I’ll put more effort, and maybe a little more money into them.  That’s all.  But I do want mostly to spend my money on tools, rather than supplies.  I have LOTS of supplies.  Anyway, I think I can spend about another 7 dollars on scrapbooking this month.  It’s been NICE to be able to buy a little something.  I’m thinking about hitting up the scrapbooking store in the next few days or so.  Hm… I thought somehow it was later in the month than it really is.  It’s only the middle of the month, I’ve still got like 2 weeks to go.  One of my local scrapbooking stores is closing, maybe I’ll go make the trek to see what I can get.  On the other hand, maybe I’ll just go get some cardstock.  I need some Bazzill Bling, I’m about out of my purples and pinks… Bazzill Bling is textured cardstock that shimmers, it’s VERY pretty, and I love it.  I’ll stop talking about scrapbooking now, lol.

I think I’m going to get off the computer entirely.  It’s been a good long while since I cleaned or scrapped, so I’m thinking I’ll clean up a bit, then scrap.  I also need to find some pictures from our last cruise, which would have been when I was pregnant with Sammi, and we went on a week-long Sammy Hagar cruise.  That was fun.  Though Sammy gets seasick, so we only got the rest of his band plus his son, but we did get to see him in concert in Cabo San Lucas, and THAT was a blast!  The whole cruise was a blast really.  Though, I’ve gone on two cruises while pregnant, and it’s not something I would do again, given the chance.  The first one was fine, but that was Shabree’s pregnancy, and the whole pregnancy was fine.  Besides, I am DONE, SO DONE with being pregnant.  Anyway, I got this great sticker today, and I would LOVE to see it on a page tonight.  Well, I’d like to get SOME page done tonight anyway.  I guess we’ll see what I can get done.  Hm… I have lots of pages to finish up in my bag… I could conceivably get 10 pages done simply by finishing up those pages.  That would be cool, though I’ve got to get the bag from the van.

And I said I was done talking about scrapping.  LOL… it’s about all I think about these days though.  What I can do differently to get out of my "rut" that I’ve been in.  Anyway, yea.  Okay, I have quite a few notes I want to respond to, but I shall do that later, I think. 

 

 

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I understand your sadness, you;ve had a lot on your plate for a good long time. The stress alone would make you sad.

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January 17, 2009

I actually must have missed this entry, but caught it on random button pushing… I love Target and their deals.