02/21/2010

I wrote the last entry, then realized I had so much more to say… 

I have been about ready to run away.  That’s the simplest way of putting it.  Bec runs away about once a month, I’m really starting to feel like it’s my turn.  I am so tired of getting no support from Jerry, especially when it comes to her.  

Ugh.  I can’t talk about this without getting upset and angry.   I really don’t believe Becca loves me… or even likes me.  I don’t believe she believes I love her.  I am not in a mood to like her, she’s always rejecting me and making me feel horrible.  In fact, there are days when I feel so angry with her that I just wish she’d go live with her mother.  But she won’t.  She doesn’t see anything there for her.  A few weeks back she beat Jerry, then told her boyfriend that HE beat HER.  Oh Lord… too much here.  The bf and she are now broken up, and that’s caused issues too.  I can’t even put it all down and make it make sense.