Little bit lost.

I’m a little bit… lost for what to do right now. I decided today I would try and get Ashley to nap in her crib, and well… she’s been in there for 5 minutes, asleep for 20. We started in my bed so I could calm her with my pretend-sleep breathing, and then I lay there trying to work out what to do. During the day, I’ve only ever seen her sleep for half hour max when not next to/being held by another person. It’ll be really weird once I get her used to this whole napping alone thing. I’ll have all this free time! Up until now, the only free time I’ve had when it is just the 2 of us here has been when I put her on her playmat, and even then I have to watch her or she gets annoyed.

So… did you see the picture in my previous entry? That is why it bugs me when people say Ashley looks completely like Jake. I haven’t looked at Jake’s baby photos yet but I’m sure they are creepily similar to Ashley too. Which means Jake and I look alike, which is odd.

Right now I’m making a hummingbird slice. Ashley and I constructed it before nap time (well, she almost fell asleep in her high chair while watching me, this is why I thought of nap in a crib) so all that’s left to do is bake it. I’m excited. I know it is TERRIBLE (to me) when hot, because I realy don’t like fruit warm very often, so I have to wait until it is cold and iced before it is eaten, but that just means dessert! Hopefully I won’t eat it all tonight. I’ve been eating crazy amounts of stuff after dinner lately. Normally I have a glass of milo before bed, but I ran out a week or so ago and so I’ve been eating a LOT trying to make up for that hole in my tummy that would happen if I didn’t eat so much. I wonder why a small milo equals a million timtams?

I have been having so many body aches lately. All my joints, it started as my elbow and then it was elbow and ring finger and then my knee joined in and then hips and ugh… I also have what feels like piriformis pain, something I got in early pregnancy so at least I know the stretches to fix it and I don’t have a growing belly in the way! It’s on both sides, so deep in my cheeks hurt whenever I walk or bend or sit or move. Sometimes I just flick my hair over my shoulder and it hurts. It’s ridiculous! I’m sure it has something to do with carrying a 15lb body around with me so often, I don’t distribute her weight across me very well.

Yesterday Ashley ate SO OFTEN that by bedtime I was completely dry. I had to warm up some previously frozen milk so she would go to sleep. It was pretty cool, because I have the milk frozen in flat sheets in these little ziplock-type bags, it tooks barely any time for it to melt, and then warm up. And Ashley allowed me to feed her the bottle! That was extra awesome, because it was just adorable. It was only her 4th bottle ever, but she knew what she was doing, grabbing the bottle and pretty much feeding herself (she couldn’t hold the weight of the bottle, but other than that…). I was glad I could feed her because Jake was tired, and he has enough trouble trying to feed her as it is. He holds her in a position that makes it difficult to feed her. She barely ate 2oz, but it allowed her to go to sleep (and me to make more milk!) so that was good.

I think I might… umm… put some photos in Ashley’s photo album! I have 60ish photos I ordered from shutterfly in early April that have just been sitting on the desk waiting for me to do something with them.

…or not. She just woke up. Half an hour in her crib, fresh as a daisy and ready for activities. Oh well. We’ll get there.