Babe won’t let me eat enough.

I really really want to bake something. Anything. But it seems so pointless and silly, to make something just for Jake and I. I know I could take stuff downstairs so we don’t have to eat everything, but I dunno. I don’t really want to do that. I like making stuff and knowing people want it, people eat it and enjoy it. Even when I just send stuff home with Lisa, I know she enjoys it. When I send stuff downstairs with Jake, I get (if I ask) "…oh yeah, they all loved it"

I don’t know what I’m rambling on about.

Maybe I’ll make something thanksgiving morning, seeing as I don’t have to do the real cooking until the 4th. Something special. Hmm… I’ll have to think about that. (I want to make cinnamon rolls, but the recipe I want to try makes 12. Unless they freeze really well, that’s kinda ridiculous. And I don’t even know if it is any good, so would I want to freeze and have them around for ages? Lousy recipe with only 1 egg, being un-halfable)

Speaking of thanksgiving, I have to come up with some veggie side dishes. This is the part I have WAY too much trouble with. We have mashed potatoes, I’ve asked for a salad to be brought… but that’s it. I have to find something that I don’t have to worry about heating, especially not something that has to be cooked in the oven and served hot, there is no way that will work, we don’t have the oven space. Last year I had a hot stove-top broccoli dish and by the time everything was almost ready – turkey needed to be cut up, everything needed to be checked for temp, stuffing loaf needed to be finished up, gravy needed to be made… it was so overwhelming that I just forgot, so there was no veggies (well, there was a green bean cassarole that someone brought, but it was something I can’t eat… and even if I could I wouldn’t want to. Mushrooms? Canned gross creamy soup? No thanks!) and I felt so silly when I realised.

So I need some kind of… room-temp salad. Maybe something with beans. Beans are good. I don’t know. It’s hard, I don’t have any family traditions or many years of past thanksgivings to work with. I think we had a proper thanksgiving once when we were with Lisa and Matt, the other was just the 4 of us (everyone else wanted to be off with the other sides of their families) so we didn’t really do anything. For Christmas at home, we always go over to my aunt’s place because we travel interstate to see everyone so I don’t have experience with big meals. I just have had to dive right in.

I don’t remember if I mentioned it here, I probably forgot, which is a pity because it means I have no idea when it happened. Some time not long after Mum left, so about a month ago (?), I messed up my left knee. I squatted down to get something and my leg bounced me back up and shot out from underneath me. Ever since, it hurts to bend. I walk down our stairs like an old person, one step at a time keeping my left straight. If I have to sit down in a controlled way, it hurts. Really bugs me that I’ve fuggered up my knee. Makes me feel ancient.

Thankfully my only other injury at the moment is a bruise under one of my fingernails. The white part bent back, but because it was uneven, on one end it bent into the pink. So now I have an ugly bruise that I like to look at.

I’m mostly just rambling my way through this entry because House is on in 7 minutes.

Did you know I have a pile of candy corn still on the dining table (in a container of course)? This is why I don’t want to bake, even though I want to bake. I still have halloween candy! Sitting right next to our turkey roasting pan, and the packet of christmas cards that I really have to write in soonish. 3 holidays all on the one table. BAM! (If you want a xmas card, leave me your address in a private note and I’ll add you to the list!)

Maybe I’ll make banana muffins tomorrow. I need something good for lunch. Ever since Ellen was here, and we had sandwiches for lunch almost every day for a month, I can’t stand the idea of eating a sandwich for lunch. At least, not the kind that is just a peanut butter sandwich or something. I need more variety between 2 slices of bread! Lunch time every day is difficult because I’m huungry but I’m so sick of all the options I have… but I don’t know what other options I could give myself. Blah. I’m so sick of food.

She’s kicking me in the elbow again…