Late October Woes

It always comes down to money – money that I don’t have.

Not working as much as I need to be because of school means I’ve had to take out Emergency Student Loans – the first one I took out just became due and I can’t enroll till I pay either a $77 past due balance or the full $977 that I borrowed. I would normally be able to do this but I overdrew the shit out of my checking account at the beginning of the month when I paid my rent and phone bill in the same day and forgot that I didnt have enough for both. My checking account is still in the red, and my last direct deposit went in last Friday and cut the debt in half to the bank, which means that I essentially DID NOT get paid. 

I’m barely floating on top of the water right now… I’m just wanting this semester to hurry up and end so I can get my financial cushion back before the Spring semester starts again.

On the bright side school goes swimmingly – where was all this motivation 9 years ago, seriously? I’m excited for Thanksgiving, it’s the ONLY break I have gotten this semester from school, and I plan to spend as much of it in Wichita as possible since the last time I was down there was in August right before the semester started. I will be in Wichita on November 19th for the night with Victor because he’s been recognized by the K State College of Education as a Promising Teacher, so he’s getting an award and he asked me to come as his guest. Nothing is definitely going on there anymore… he’s in the friend zone now and sometimes, I seriously just want to kill him… example: we were supposed to hang out tonight after I got off work and he fell asleep before then and didnt wake up till 5 hours later, meanwhile I had cleared my schedule to hang out and didnt do a damn thing all night because of it. Furious.

Started seeing a therapist again… it really helps to talk to an impartial ear sometimes, you have no idea 🙂

Writing in here helps too.

-Miguel