LIttle bit of this, Little bit of that.
It has been to long, in same ways I miss it other ways I don’t; it’s kind of make no sense yet at the same times it does. To bad I’m not the kind of person who can just go out and fine someone and just have a one night stand. Though I can think of a couple people who I would be more than happy to do some things with, but they are not close by for me to go knocking on their door to see if they would want to have a little fun. So I have no choice in the matter but to be happy with just myself…even though that dose get kind of old.
I remember Shell (Sis-in-law) saying something to me along the lines of her not seeing how someone can go so long without. It’s not like I planned this, or that I like it really, it’s just the way it is. I’m not like her who married the first guy she ever dated. The ones I have been with never seem to work out, so what I’m I to do? Just go out and fuck when ever I get the need to do so? Yea sure that will work…NOT!
I don’t think anyone who has been with the same person all their lives would know what it’s like not to have sex, they never gone without it so how could they? The only way they would understand it is if they go without it, and who is going to do that? I don’t see anyone saying to themselves and their Husband/Wife that they are going to go without sex for so long just to know how people can live without it. That would be a day to write down I would think.
Enough about that, doesn’t help thinking or talking about it, it’s not going to change anything, only thing will right now is my hand and that will come later….so on to something else. I thought about writing a story, though I haven’t really gotten in the mood to write one yet. I know a few of you would like me to, but unless I can think of something and get in the writing mood I don’t see it happening to soon. Heck I haven’t even wrote a poem in a long while. Just have to wait and see what happens.
Got close to getting this one job, but didn’t work out like I thought it would, sucks cos I really needed it. Guess I just have to keep looking, maybe I will get something better then that one. Would be nice if I could, then more fun will start, of the joys of life… All the ups and downs you get just to make you know you are living….
Well I am going to get some sleep, only having 5 hours of sleep and staying up till 6:30 in the morning is not a good things to do, but oh well not like I need that much sleep, after all everyone will sleep when we are dead. 🙂
Stay safe and have fun!