Lessons

I haven’t the foggiest what to say. It’s nearly 1am on the last day of my break, and I can’t fall asleep. I dreamt of her last night. I know how cliche and stupid that sounds but it’s true. We were on the run from zombies (no shit) and she was trying shoes on. Of all the possible things in a dream, she was trying out different shoes while I battled mindless flesh eaters for our very survival. Fucking typical.

I’ve come to realize over the past month that perhaps I was romanticizing things a bit. That I was making more of the situation than I really should have. Don’t get me wrong, I threw myself at this completely. It’s the only time I ever went in wide open and I paid for it… Boy did I ever. But I’ve learned too.

First: Sometimes your head knows what your heart ignores. Listen to it. Second: Everyone takes. Not everyone gives. Learn to pick out those who only keep. Avoid them. Third: You have no right to regret or resent that which you’ve given freely. Being able to let go and walk away is hard. Fourth and finally: The most important lessons are often the most difficult to learn.

All of this was done on my phone. I hope the paragraph breaks work.