Nothing Comes Easy. I get it

I get it now.

Not a relationship.

Not a job.

Not Life.

Right now I am dealing with rejection after rejection. 

Talk about hard, hurtful, depressing, and blow to the esteem.

I am searching for a job in Chicago.  One that I spent 4 years studying for in college.  One that I have a passion for. One that I can grow from and in.  One that pays me what I deserve. One.  All I need is ONE opportunity to shine.  To show what I can do, to make a change.  Just one.

You think I would be asking for too much.  I have sent my resume and cover out to so many places.  And still nothing. If people tell me that I am talented, and that I am great.  Why wouldnt you hire me? Just shut up and keep it moving.  I dont need the buttering up.  I dont. Just give me a job.

This is not the way I planned for my career to go.  I am so off track, Im lost. I wanted to be in Advertising, in a great position by 25 and starting back to school to get my degree in the area of Advertising I chose.

Im sick of working 3 jobs and still living paycheck to paycheck.  Im sick of doing work that no one else wants to do, so I am stuck with it.  Im sick of settling for jobs because I cant get the one I want.  Im sick of not being hired because my dad isnt CEO.  Im sick of not being hired because I dont have a referral.  Sick. Sick. Sick.

Im trying to remain faithful.  But which each day it gets harder and harder.

I need a job in advertising, that pays well. Amen.