Low Moment

Looking in the mirror as I type I see a HOT MESS.

My hair looks like crap, I dont have on any makeup, Im poor, lonely and sick.  I’ve had cramps for 2 days now, why I dont know, been bleeding for way too long…I’ve lost count now.

Why me I ask?

Im so poor right now, to the point where I dont even check my mail, because I just know its another bill awaiting payment…well keep waiting.  Thats what Im doing.  WAITING for a promotion I should have received 5 months ago, waiting for my tax return, waiting for a commission check, whether I want to admit it or not waiting for my phone to ring “Cause you know that I want you…” haha sick joke….just like me.

Waiting. 

Things have got to get better. Im so down right now, I’ve really been inside my apt for 2 days now. Didnt go to work yesterday, because I am beginning to hate it there, hate my boss and what I am doing.  I need to find the root of my problem because it is starting to affect my body.

Back to bed and the television…