Leaving

After spending my last day in Virginia. My mom, sister and the kids came to visit me before I left. It was nice having them there and sad at the same time, because I will no longer be able to go home when I want to. I wont be close to my family and I wont have my friends. Thinking about it all makes me very very sad. I spent the weekend in tears. I hate saying goodbye, especially to the life I have always known. 
 
Seeing my mom cry as she hug me goodbye made things 100000 times worse and harder for me. I’d never seen her cry like that, I felt like I was hurting her. Part of me wanted to say okay I wont leave. I don’t want to hurt or worry my mom. I love her and my dad so much. They have done and given me more than I could ever ask for. 
 
To Chicago…