feeling stressed

Lately, I have been blah and haven’t been able to relax. Aaron’s been playing his video game more and more lately. He gets really into it. He gets pissed off when something doesn’t go right. Like he yells, swears, throws things. All of that makes me really jumpy and on edge. On Sunday, he played his game for 8 hours, only with a half hour break and bathroom break once.

Last night, he played it 3 hours straight. Which I don’t understand…..cause in the past he says Monday’s are his busy days and the day he’s the most tired. In the past I’ve asked him for sex, to walk the dogs, play with the dogs, or turn on the train (one dog loves seeing the train in action). He always responds with he’s “too tired” or “need to relax” or “I want to lay here”. But he can play his game?! It may be his way to relax but it’s not relaxing for anyone when he’s yelling and swearing.

I get jumpy, the dogs are stressed and jumpy. They literally shake when he plays his video game. The last 2 days I asked him a question and he got all defensive. I don’t want him to be defensive but just to tell him to tone it down. I fear that’ll make him mad. He’s such an angry emotional person sometimes.

My mom is coming in a week and a half. She’ll probably stay at our house. My sister lives in the same town (just on the other side) and sister doesn’t want mom to stay at her place over night. My mom smokes. Neither one of us wants her smoking in our houses. So in the middle of the night my mom will wake up, go outside to smoke. Sister doesn’t want mom to stay at her house cause sisters dog would get excited in the middle of the night, sister then fears dog would wake up her kid.

I don’t know if I want my mom staying at my place anymore either. We also have dogs that get excited when they hear someone get up in the middle of the night. And my mom refuses to sleep on a bed. We have 2 bedrooms. 2 beds. Mom only wants to sleep on the couch cause she says couches are more comfortable. When my mom is at her own house, she hasn’t slept in a bed in years (maybe 10 years?). She has 3 beds at her house.

So, Aaron rolls his eyes, he gets up that she refuses to sleep on a bed. My mom always sleeps on “aaron’s couch”. Aaron and I bought this furniture together, he always sits on one sofa, I sit on the other. I’ll have to tell my mom that she needs to sleep on the extra bed to keep Aaron happy. Or make her sleep on the other sofa, even if it shorter. I guess it doesn’t bother me as much as it bothers Aaron (he’s super protective of ‘his’ stuff…and she always smells like smoke so he doesn’t want his things smokey).