sigh!

Today I went to work as usual. Nothing grand! I did have a Reading Is Fundamental Program to put on. I prepared the books I had to distribute to the children.

I bought them Easter candy…peanut butter bunnies and skittle eggs wrapped in individual wrappers. I had altogether 300 books to give out.

As I was about to go upstairs to set the room up, my co-worker, Annette told me that I had to cover for her because my other co-worker, MaryAnne did not come in. Sigh! Well I asked a page who helps me upstairs to help me set the basket up and to please pour in the candies and count the R.I.F. books for the children. She did a great job! I stayed at the adult department for one hour. Not much occured, just adults wanting to use the InterNet came to the desk to sign up for 30 minutes on the Net. Then a lady came holding a baby. She wanted to breast-feed the child and asked me if I could put some chairs for her to publicly feed her child! Well my face took on 5 different shades of purple! I told her that, quite frankly, I did not think a library was the appropriate place to feed a child…and that she had to go to the bathroom or upstairs. She went upstairs to the childrens’ Department and breast-feed her child! I don’t want my childrens’ Department to be a place where lactating mothers feed their children in broad daylight in front of a bunch of kinder-garten children and other students! Grrrrrrrrr!!!!

When I got upstairs I loaded ICQ in hopes that I might catch my Alex on to say hello to him! He sent me a nice e-card yesterday wishing that my week was going well! I sent him a nicer one this morning. I hope he is well!

I miss him so very much! My heart aches from not chatting with him! At 2:20 PM he wasn’t on! My heart sank! I feel so lonely! Yet I tried to occupy myself with the task at hand…the R.I.F. distribution.

Quickly I set up the corner of the library where I was to hand the children their free books. Twenty-two children came and took a free book and candy.

It was a quiet afternoon and I was glad I went home at 5PM. 🙁

No Alex! No E-mail! No ICQ message from him!!!

I can’t help longing for him! I did what other women do…I haven’t e-mailed him in two days, but I did this with a heavy heart…for I can’t help pouring out my heart to those who have been kind to me from the start.

I just left him a message on IcQ telling him I missed him so! This is eating up my heart, and yet, I would feel awful if he had to write to me just to hear me stop whining! 🙁

No! I shall be strong! When he does come on I will greet him as always and tell him I am doing fine and I have been busy! I can’t tell him how much my heart is breaking from not hearing from him. This absense is torture on my soul, guys! Yet I know I must endure it.

I can’t afford to lose Alex…not to my foolish pride nor whim, but I can’t help longing for him so much!

Two weeks ago it was he who was searching on-line desperately for me…telling me how much he needed me! I was here for him! I am always here for him! I am here to calm all his fears and anxieties.

SensualRose @}>->->->-