Nerves Frazzled

My stomach isn’t doing too well today. 🙁

I just drank a cup of chamomile tea, or as my darling Axle might say, “A cup of Rosey Lee” 😀

Good ole Axle!

I really haven’t been up to par over the last few weeks!

I hardley slept last night. I kept crying! I hugged the soft cuddly pillow the serves as a frame for a picture of my Axle Bear. I kept thinking of these real sad experiences I had once and I just couldn’t help it! I got a downpour of tears! I just cried all night. Well, they do say that tears cleanse the soul! In that case, my soul is cleansed now of all impurities…but I still feel lousy 🙁

Today I feel no better. I feel unsettling!

It rained most of the day here and I went down the Avenue with my mother. We went shopping and had lunch at Popeyes. I had the two pc chicken meal and a cup of ‘horrid’ coffee.

Mom felt terrible too for she has come down with a flu and I guess I am too. I kept sneezing and my back hurt.

Hey! I wonder what Axle would say if he kept hearing me complain like this! I just can’t help it! To whom am I going to complain about my sad psyche!? Who will stand and listen to me whining??? Certainly not any of my friends…they don’t want to listen to the constant agony of a miserable fool! I certainly don’t want to complain to Axle! God forbid! Once in a while I can tell him about one or two aches, but I sure know the rule about whining constantly in front of your honey.

They run like a steed in the opposite direction 🙁

One sure thing…they really hurt me bad when i was a kid and it still has an emotional and physical bearing on my soul. I am carrying around a heavy stone upon my chest and it seems I cannot seem to get rid of it.

🙁

I am hoping to stop whining soon enough. Maybe by next week or so I will start feeling 99 % better.

My brother and his wife and their dog, Pugsley, are coming over soon. Gee, katz! I’d rather just go lay down than receiving them again, but I have downloaded MSN Messenger in a folder called Downloads and would like to have my brother activate it for me. He has purposely restricted the downloading capability of my Pc so only he can activate and install programs for me.

I need this chat program to chat with Alex when he isn’t on ICQ. 🙂

I better go and relax now.

Pretty soon they are coming over and I am still uptight.

Sensual @}>->->->