I’m jaded now, whatever that means

Man…

When am I gonna learn??  Sam and Brian are back to-fucking-gether.  It makes NO sense.  "Labels are lame" she says.  Hmmm…okay, then why did she tell me she was gay last week??   Fuck fuck fuck.  This is all so stupid.  Saturday was so awesome, and I spent Sunday quite happy.  And then today, I find out they’re back together.  She’s "comfortable" with him.  I half-wonder if her coming out to her mom and her mom not taking it so well has anything to do with this.  She accused me on MSN of being "critical" of all this…and I wasn’t.  I have every right to be, I’d say, but I wasn’t.  Why oh why can’t anything in my life ever be simple??  I thought I’d finally found a gay one but she goes back to her boyfriend in the blink of an eye.  Grace is…a lost cause I think, though her texts are always sweet, and she’s always telling me how much she loves me.  It is comforting to have that kind of reassurance in my life, even if I’m not sure I want to/could pursue it.  I felt like writing in here, but that feeling is slowly ebbing away, so I think I’ll leave you all with a couple pictures from Grace’s birthday dinner on Sunday…

I was fixing my bangs

That’s better

Oh, and this is my 200th entry, favourites only and all!

~SS