11:39 on Friday, May 1st 2020

i have a feeling this is gonna turn into my comfort place.

I’ve spent most of high school worrying about boys and friends and i want to change that since i’m about to be done with high school next year. This year i sort of fell out with my friend group and i’m only close with one of them now.

Sometimes i catch myself worrying that ill never fit in with a group of people and that my friends dont really like me or something. But i really want to change myself during quarantine i suppose. I want a new mentality and a new look and just to finally be happy.

You know those indie coming of age movies that make you feel all warm and fuzzy after feeling all teen angsty ? I feel like this is the end of the movie where I get to stand up in the car and blast my favorite song through the tunnel. I dont know why it’s taken me so long to finally get here but maybe im here. Maybe its time to stop being so dependent on people around me and to stop worrying about not fitting in and just stand up in the car.

And i think this is the perfect time for it