BODY

So many song (lyrics) come into my head just from typing that word.  Body.  Songs I haven’t heard yearrrrrrs.  *Freaky* songs…astaghfirulla! lol.

I did what I set out to do tonight!  I went to the UGLi to send out THE EMAILS, printed out my event flyers and the Career Center Slip, and organized my inbox.  Although I left 30 minutes after I said I would (9 pm), I was on a high walking back to my apartment.  Then I realized there was a hotness between my legs!  It felt like I was on fire or about to start one.  Then I remembered.  I had taken off my ‘hot-purple-track-spandex’ from underneath my skirt to jet to the library and now, walking briskly back, my thighs were rubbing together.  This broke my whole mood that I had acquired.  There was a time when my thighs didn’t touch!  My body was perfect to me at one time.  It wasn’t that long ago.  Maybe I was 12? (lol).  Walking back with each thigh causing friction with other was not pleasant.  I need to get toned, lose weight, whateveralloftheabove.  I’m glad that the skin didn’t tear, though.   *grumbles*

I intend to invest in my hair.  Like for serious, serious.  To the extreme that the only money I will spend (outside school expenses) will be on hair products, hair council, and professional haircare people.  ANYTHING to give it more length, more luster, more BODY.  WoW.  That does sound extreme.  But listen!  My hair is falling out guys.  Faster and faster, more frequently and frequently.  And I tell you what, it is more devastating and devastating to reach back to twirl the tendril that you twirled just last week and not to find it there (note: I don’t usually twirl my hair between my fingers so I doubt that is the reason for the hair loss).   It is weird, my hair.  It is ‘naturally’ layered.  In a bad way. Writing about it makes me near to tears and…embarrassed.  My mom has little hair in the middle of her scalp.  Is that genetic?  Seems so!  Currently my hair in the exact same place is the shortest on my head!!  I went to this seminar for "black hair" and the sheet they gave out said that if you don’t perm or dye your hair (that’s me!) you should wrap it up every night in satin fabric OR sleep on satin pillows so as not to cause friction between your hair and coarse material causing split ends.  3 out of 5 of my hair strands are split ends (of course I didn’t count, but looking at a few closely, that is what it seems like).  I am so bummed.  It is the ONLY thing that I CAN’T change about myself it seems. *more grumbles*

This entry wasn’t supposed to be all grumpy and complainy.  I guess ‘it’ just kind of came out. 

GOOD NEWS!  The girl on here that I stalk without her knowing, err, I mean…uh, anyway, she went into labor yesterday!  Her and her son are healthy.  She had her mom update her diary to tell her readers.  Isn’t that sweet?  I know alot of you want to know who this gal is (I don’t think I have gotten so many private notes as I did on the last entry!) but I really don’t know if I should.  For some reason I feel protective of this girl.  I will think about it and *probably* cave in.  Her site is wonderful as well as her entries and THEY SHOULD BE SHARED.  Just not know.

My bed looks awfully enticing (I’m on my new laptop again).  Read ya later?

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RYN: Lol. Nope I never said anything about him sending me a teddy bear. All I told was that I had something for him for his bday. I even asked him his size which is very OBVIOUS to what it is. And I just said that I needed his address. So it makes me wonder about him again…Take care!

February 7, 2005

*huggles* =)

February 8, 2005

i feel u about the hair thing. maybe its because we wear hijab. blk hair is harder to maintain than “arab” hair or “white” hair. mine wont stop falling out. ever since i started wearing hijab all the time. maybe our hair needs to breathe more. i have so many products for hair. my mom and my sister have should length hair. *sigh* i dont know what to do i’m so confused.

February 9, 2005

argh. i left u a note that didn’t save. argh it all. it was to the tune of: i have the same hair deal. thyroid is what my companions have diagnosed me with but i refuse to see a doctor b/c MY dr had brain surgery and im not keen on seeing someone else. i dunno, i suppose i am just stubborn. such is me. you take care and enjoy the sleep, ciao!

RYN: Awww, thank you so much! Sooo sweet! I’ve added you to my list. My email address would be joeboxerismyidol55@hotmail.com. I’ll be looking forward to talking to you sometime:-) And I’ll shall be writing on here more often…Take care!