but everything goes away
so i take back everything i said in my last entry about not wanting to die anymore.
the difference is i used to want to die for no real reason. now life is just so horrible and stressful that i would give anything for it to just stop.
this is all made worse by the fact that when i get too overwhelmed, my brain kindly shuts down on me so i can barely remember my fucking name.
i just really, really, REALLY hate my life right now.
i keep trying to tell myself that if i can just make it until mid-may, most of this stress will be gone. less than 4 months. i can’t do this.
you CAN do this. I feel similarly like these weird boughts of depression are DEBILITATING and like i am wasting my life doing these things and i HATE this job and i hate my relationship (sometimes) and it shouldn’t be like this!!!!!!
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Exactly the reason I’m back around. I hate that i know what you mean. He was going to take me to the hospital. I refused and fled. I don’t know what I’d do without my family. I hope yours is still around.
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