Whirlwind..Lust..Passion!

This entry is long..Sorry!

Well…. Where do I start?  Okay last weekend started off a little crazy.  A co-worker from my old job called and told me that Bert (my new fling) went off on her really bad at work, I mean to the point she reported him. She knows Bert and I are cool but that is all she knows.  Anyway to make a long story short she can push buttons, Lord knows she has pushed mine but Bert may have overreacted.  I listened. He told me his part I didn’t tell him I already knew what happened. I listened. They both told me he apologized but she did not accept his apology and Bert told me she was boo-hoo crying and everything.  I was just like damn.

  Anyway, my sister’s 25th  Formal B-day party was Saturday night.  Eddie (my married ex-fling) was the photographer.  It was weird seeing him and he looked sooo georgeous and I had a few impure thoughts but I know I won’t act on them.  He was very professional and he looked so sexy and swave in his suit.  I caught him looking at me a couple times like he wanted to eat me up but I just smiled and the night was left with all it’s innocence in tact.

I spent most of the night with Bert.  I really like him, I just still don’t get him,he is NOT putting as much into this as I would like.  I talked to a good friend of mine and she is going through the same thing with her man friend.  She told me that I can’t expect Bert to jump into this and call all the time right now.  She feels that this is something  that comes with time.  Anyway, I didn’t talk to Bert all weekend.  He called Friday, I had to call him back and when I called him back he was busy.  Sunday , he texted msg. me and I was sleep.  So, Monday I texted him “R u home?..Feel like company?” He immediately responded Yes.  I went over and he was cleaning up a little.  I jumped in and helped much to his surprise.  It was nice.  I washed dishes and he came and put his arms around me from behind and kissed my forehead and cheeks.  It was nice. We are sooo cute together.

We decided to watch a movie and of course Bert decided we would watch the movie upstairs. You know after the last time I was afraid of upstairs (read previous entry). LOL!

We went upstairs and talked and laughed.  He eventually laid beside me and we started kissing.  His kisses are soo sweet and gentle, I just lose myself.  He started sucking my neck and then he started sucking my breast.  Giving each one ample attention and tongue.  I lightly moaned.  I knew things were going too fast but it felt to good.  He got on top of me and his manhood was soooo hard..soo hard.  It was big and bulging and he teased me with it.  I could feel it soo good even though my pants were still on. I kept kissing him and it was sooo good.  I told him we needed to slow down but I couldn’t stop holding his face and kissing him.  He sat up and told me to come to him.  I  came and I kissed him but I told him we needed to slow down and he smiled and he said, “How slow, show me how slow, you want me to make love to it , show me.   I just looked at him and he laid my head on his chest and I fell asleep.  He fell asleep too.  His heart beat was soo soothing. 

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I woke up to his kisses on my face.  We started to kiss soo slow and passionant.  It was like we were just trying to enjoy every minute of each others lips and tongue.  I held his face softly he held my face softly.  He started kissing and sucking my  neck and breasts.  His hands wandered into my pants and he slip my thong to the side and teased me with his fingers.  I was in ectasy.  He kissed me and told me I looked so pretty with that look on my face.  Things were getting to hot and I knew I should have left.  I told him we needed to slow down.  He started sucking and licking my ears.  I moaned as he worked my ears and my clit.  He kissed me, my breasts, my stomach and then he started to pull off my pants and I told him we needed to stop we were going to fast.  I told him I needed to go all while kissing him.  I whispered to him why does he make me feel like this because I need to go but I didn’t want to.  He told me to please stay.  He asked me did I want to leave or did I want to cum. I smiled as I kissed him.  By this point my pants and my thong were off but I was still fighting it.  He pulled me to him and I felt how hard he was and he fingered me as I moaned.  I grabbed his hands and told him I need to leave we have to stop.  He told me to just stay. We kept kissing I bent over to pick up my thong and he put his bare manhood against my bare ass.  I grabbed him in my hands and stroked it and told we really had to stop.

 We kept kissing and he pulled me on top of him.  I told him we were going to fast.  He said it’s not like I just met him.  By this point I am halfway on him and halfway off.  We were both naked. My head was on his shoulder and my hands were stoking his face softly.  He told me he didn’t want me to do anything I didn’t want to do.  I kissed him as I stroked his face.  I asked him what he wanted from me.  I can’t remember what he said but to me he was beating around the bush.  Something about wants and expectation and needs or something. I wanted him to say, “I want you, I want there to be an us.” I don’t know.  He told me he needed someone to love him no matter what.  He told me he didn’t want me to do anything if I didn’t feel comfortable because he wanted both of us to enjoy ourselves.  I told him I was comfortable around him but I was scared.  Scared of being hurt.  He was like hurt how?  I didn’t know how to answer that.  I told him I didn’t want to be just one of the girls he was sleeping with.  He told me he wasn’t sleeping with anybody. I asked him what he was thinking as I kissed his forehead and rubbed his face. He told me just thinking about me.  I kept rubbing his face as we talked and kissed him occasionally.  He didn’t say a lot of lies to get me to sleep with him and he told me he was honest and anything he said was just that.  I told him I respected that.  He rubbed my legs softly and I told him I needed to go.

 I got up and he got up and we put on our clothes and he walked me out.  He held my hands from behind as we walked downstairs.  He gave me a hug and a kiss and he told me to call me when I got home.  I did and we told each other to have a good night.  Dang, that teased both of us.  I keep going back and forth from wishing I let him have me to being glad I didn’t. 

What do you guys think? I can’t stop thinking about him.  Gosh, I bet he had to take a cold shower, I hate to keep teasing him like that.  Comments appreciated.