What do I say? How do I say it?

Hello Everyone:

My weekend was cool.  We actually took some of the girls from church to Pine Mountain for the weekend.  They had a ball.  We did a drive through Safari adventure which was crazy.  I mean the animals walk right up to the car.  Zebras, Giraffes, Camels, Cows, Moose, Deer, Elks, Ostriches, Horses, Bulls, Rams..ect.  It was crazy.  The girls screamed their heads off because the animals were sticking their heads right in the van. 

We stayed in a log cabin which was very nice.  It was three bedrooms 2 1/2 bath complete with full kitchen, balcony with a great view and jacuzzi.  It was a nice getaway.  I thought about Bert all weekend.  In fact, I can’t stop thinking about him.  It is driving me crazy.  I know this time of the month has a lot to do with the intensity of it all but to feel like this is driving me crazy.

I called him Sunday after I got back and he was spending time with his daughter.  In fact she was asleep on his chest so I didn’t want to hold him but he wanted to talk. He asked about my weekend and I told him about Pine Mountain and he kept saying how cool that would be.  I told him maybe "one day" we could go together.  He was like let’s go this weekend.  For some reason, I didn’t say no, maybe because the whole time I was there I was thinking what a nice romantic getaway it would be if I was there with him instead of 10 girls from ages ranging from  4-14.  We talked a while and it was cool.  I have had time to think about it and although it sounds great, that is pretty "big" for us at this point.  I think we should go slower especially since there is no way I could stay at a log cabin with this sexy a$$ man and NOT have sex.  I know I am weak, I will be the first to admit it. 

I just don’t know what to do or how to work this new found whatever it is we are doing.  I love spending time with him and he consumes my thoughts.  I want to see him everyday.  We don’t have to do anything but just chill and that is enough for me.  I don’t understand why I am feeling this way.  I don’t want to move too fast but I want to know what’s up.  I feel like he wants me to initiate everything and that is like foreign language to me so I don’t know how much (if any) to put myself out there without making myself vunerable to him.  Do I just tell him I am feeling him and ask him how he feels about me?  How do I express the trip is not a good idea without him getting the wrong idea like I don’t want to go?  How do I know what to do with the whole situation?  Do I pull back because I am getting too caught up?  He asked me what I wanted from him while he stared in my eyes and I held his face, I told him I wanted his companionship and he said what else and and I froze, I asked what he wanted he told me peace..peace of mind and someone to love him for him.  How do I tell him I think I can be that person for him?  Is it too soon to tell him that? 

Please let me know your thoughts..Guys..I need your help on this one to.  What would you want?

 All comments appreciated.