Life Is Funny

Hello Everyone:

It is 8:00am on Sunday and I am awake for one and alert for the other.  Hmmm. Strange considering what a long weekend I had. 

Yesterday was my best friend’s Bridal Shower and as Maid of Honor I had to plan and coordinate everything. The shower was a success and she had a ball! It’s very strange because she is getting married to my first high school sweetheart.  It’s funny how the tables turn. We were on again off again and even though he cheated on me and broke my heart I always knew deep down he didn’t mean to hurt me and that he was genuinely a good guy.  Somewhere around our freshman year of college we finally moved on and we split..even being friends.  Which would have been REALLY REALLY hard if I didn’t go through what we went through in high school.  When we split in high school I didn’t think the sun would rise the next day or the the moon would shine.  I lost my man and my best friend at once.  I mean I did my dirt too, but I think mostly in retaliation.  My dirt was Steve and now I can’t get rid of him 10 years later.  Life is hillarious!

Needless to say it was hard for my best friend to tell me that her and my ex (her friend) wanted to step things up but she did and I gave them my blessing.  To be honest, it is soooo great having my friend back.  Me and him could laugh and talk about anything and now we get to do that all over again because we are friends again. This sudden burst of happiness didn’t come initially, but all those thoughts were kept to myself.  The thoughts like, "Why can he make it work with her? Did he forget all the special times we spent talking for hours at a time? Does he remember who comforted him when he cried? Did he ever care about me like I cared about him? Anyway, but I get it.  I have my friend back and that is all that matters.  When I am over their house, he never wants me to leave and vice versa.  It’s great.  I think we both deserve to be happy and he definitly is.  I am happy for them. 

I have held my ground not seeing Steve or having sex with him and iit only gets harder as time passes.  I talked to him the other day and he wanted some answers.  I simply told him I didn’t want to see him, he asked me was there someone else and I told him it wasn’t about anyone else it was what I wanted.  We talked a little while longer caught up on each other’s lives and said our goodbye’s that was last Sunday.  I am sure he will breakdown and call again.  He will have to, because I just don’t call him.

Anyway, just felt like typing what was on my mind.  Life is funny.  Thanks for reading! 

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