I’m Still Alive

Hello People:

I am still alive just been up to pretty much nothing lately.

Love Life- I get in these moods and I am in one now.  I just feel like there is no need to keep wasting time and energy with anyone (Steve) who I don’t plan to spend my life with.  I’m getting older and I want to be married and I want kids and I need to do that with a stand-up type of guy. I guess this stemed from a mini-argument Steve and I had and I can’t even remeber why but I haven’t answered his calls since.  He is probably like WTF?  To be honest I don’t even think he deserves an explanation or anything. At some point I will tell him he is a looser and I want more but I really don’t want to hurt his feelings so I just choose to ignore the calls.

  I think when you have flings you kind of take yourself out of the running to meet great guys because you are complacent with what you have. I don’t want to be that girl anymore, I am too old for that.  I don’t want to sound redundant either so this is really hard to write.  It makes it permanent, sort of like I need to really do it this time and mean it.  I deserve better and I have to act like I do.

Weddings- I am in two weddings.  YIPPIE!!  I wondered when I was going to be that girl that says "Always the bridesmaid and never the bride".  Well, that time has come!  One of my best friend’s wedding is in April and my other friend’s wedding is in May.  The dresses are more than $200.00 a piece.  Not to mention shoes, accessories, bridal shower and bacholorette party fees.  Oh, and did I mention the May wedding is out-of -state.  Like across the state.  Luckily she is paying for my plane ticket.  They are killing my pockets!

Babies-  Two more friends just told me they were pregnant.  Not to mention my friends/family/associates who just had new babies.  JEEZ!!  Hello, life stop passing me by.  I am here!

Job- I said I would get serious about finding a new job in March and now (all of a sudden) it’s March! So, I have to find a job, a good job.  I am excited about the possibilities.

Thanks for reading.  I’m still alive.  Comments Appreciated!