I’m REALLY Feeling Him!!

Hello Everyone:

I am really digging Bert.  I don’t know what it is but I am just really digging him.  I may be a glutton for punishment or something.

To give a little insight to new readers: Bert and I worked together at my other job.  We went out a couple of times.  It was cool, I liked him and we always had a great time but that is where it ended.  He had a lot of big plans for "us" but the follow through wasn’t there.  Anyway, next thing I know I found out he had a baby daughter.  I mean we were not dating seriously or anything but it still was like damn, you kicking it to me like you are single, you like my company and then boom..you have a daughter and you didn’t even tell me.  He had a one-night stand so to speak with a girl, she got pregnant.  He was hoping it wasn’t his so he didn’t say anything.  Baby came, paternity test confirmed it was his baby. Needless to say, he had to grow up quick.  We talked about  his situation and I knew he was really stressed out but I just remained cool.  I told him he should have told me because while we were out dating, this girl is all pregnant with his child.  So they were NEVER a couple it was what it was and he has to take care of his responsibilities.

Initially, I was like oh well, it’s over because he tried to keep the peace with a woman who wanted more than just a "baby daddy" she wanted a family.  She wanted Bert as her man and be one big happy family.  He didn’t but it was just too much for me because she got kicked out and had to live with him and he felt that was his responsibility as the father and blah blah… 

Fastforward- Now, he understands he can’t keep the peace by giving in.  He went and put himself on child support and he bought a house.  He told the baby mama his daughter was his responsibility not her.  She found her a job and own place and he pays for daycare and she understands that they will never be together.  It’s hard for him because now she restricts his visitation to like one day a week but I think the overall situation is better for him. 

We have been kickin hard lateley and I really like him.  You read the last entry and that was our first kiss and it was NICE!!  He came over last night and he was stressed about a situation dealing with friendship and money and he was sooo upset and we talked for hours. Things got heated but he is always a perfect gentleman and I love that.  Our kisses got heated and he started sucking my neck and I pulled him on top of me and he started to feel on my breast and gently started to suck one and I don’t know if I pulled away or if he didn’t want to over step but we calmed down and he fixed my clothes and apologized and we started to kiss softly.  At this time he was on his knees in front of me and I was on the sofa with my legs wrapped around him. It was sooo cute.  I just rubbed his head and we kissed.

 I kept holding his face and kissing him . He got back on the sofa with me. He was still stressing sooo much.  I just listened and  rubbed his head and kissed him and he held me so tight and then kissed me and placed my head on his chest and I eventually fell asleep on his chest and I slept like a baby.  I woke up by his soft kisses on my face and he told me he was going to leave but he thanked me for listening and being there for him.  It was soo sweet.  I walked him out and he gave me a sweet goodbye kiss.

We have been talking all the time for hours at a time and it is soo different this time around but I don’t want to get in too deep but it’s hard because I am really feeling him.  Gosh, he is sooo beautiful and sexy.  It  is so hard for me to not straddle him and ride him to completion.  Anyway, thanks for reading.  I am excited about what is happening between us but then again I’m scared.

Thanks for reading!