Healing

Hey OD Fam:

Well, I am definitely better, not 100% but better.  The Friday I received Myles’s text letting me know he was bringing another woman to our church I was numb.  Saturday, I was a basketcase…all tears..all day.  Sunday, I was prayerful and hopeful but hurt…Monday and Tuesday the following week were better but the tears still snuck up on me in the middle of the night..By Wednesday, I was done..that was about two weeks ago and I have not cried since.  I miss him, but I am okay, I am hopeful that I will find that special someone. 

I did have to see Myles at church last Sunday and he came up to me (like nothing was wrong) and told me that he he wanted to call but he didn’t know if I wanted to be bothered.  I just looked at him and walked away with no response.  I don’t know how we got here, well we got here because he didn’t care about my feelings in my book.  I mean relationships end and hearts get broken, we know that we were dealing with that but for him to take my heart and stomp on it was too much, he said we were best friends, that we were a team, that I would always be the love of hs life, that I was everything whether we were together or not…The sad thing is that he still probably believes that even after he hurt me..Whatever!

I miss him, I thought we had what it took..but on to the next! 

Thanks for the supportive words and thanks for reading!